Hello one and all and Happy New Moon!!
I got to San Diego on Friday and have spent the past few days relaxing and adjusting. This New Moon has been a bit more subtle than others, the energy hasn’t been as sharp as it’s been in the past. Instead I’ve been faced with vivid dreams and a short temper. I’ve been slacking on my soul work so I was super excited to see that Linsday Mack of Wild Soul Healing put out a tarot challenge! A new month means new habits and a daily tarot practice led by one of my favorite healers seemed like the perfect place to start. I decided it would be something interesting (read::: scary// difficult// emotional // worthy) to share on here. I know that whenever I go through major shifts I’m not alone- we’re all way more connected than we think, so I like to share my own story when possible- so here you go!
:::DAY 1::: WHAT SEED AM I PLANTING THIS NEW MOON
THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE
Sometimes I doubt the cards and then BAM- they hit me like a pile of bricks (or like a boy who suddenly tells me he’s sold his soul to Satan which is just as scary.) This New Moon I am planting destiny. I am planting my future and sowing the seeds to (hopefully) things larger than I can comprehend. I start my dream internship with Vivienne Westwood next week and if you’ve talked to me about it, you know two things- 1. I’m freaking out 2. This feels like fate. I’m a fairly decisive person- I’ve always known what I’ve liked and what I’ve wanted and I knew that I needed to work with Vivienne. I know that what’s happening in my immediate future is big. It’s huge. It’s absolute, no chill, hard work paying off, manifestation station, soul pumping fate. It is destiny. It is The Wheel of Fortune in it’s entirety. This internship was the cumulation of a million emails, literally negative chill and an absolute belief that this is what I’m meant to do and where I’m meant to be. And you know what- that’s exactly what this card is.
The Wheel of Fortune symbolizes karma, hard work, surrender. It’s the cogs that start moving, the ebb and flow of the tide and the pull of the moon. It’s equal parts hustle, letting go, and constant, unwavering belief. On one hand it can look like everything you’ve ever wanted, your wildest hopes and dreams come to fruition- like destiny. But success is an illusion- your only purpose right now is to exist. To love and to see. To use the present to manifest what you want without losing whatever’s going on right now. The Wheel of Fortune is using what you’ve been given to craft something better, something more worthwhile but it can also hide behind the curtain of ego and whisper in your ear and tell you that your life would be better if you had more or were doing something better. There’s nothing wrong with challenging yourself- but destiny and fate are elusive. They’re written in whatever language you deem them in. What’s YOUR definition of fortune, of fate? Is it coming from what your soul needs or are you crafting your lifes work in the image of what someone else (or society) tells you to?I also pulled Nightmare from the Oracle of Oddities. It seems backwards, but sometimes our biggest fears are actually just sheep in sheeps clothes- ever heard of too much of a good thing? Sometimes our biggest dreams are actually the scariest. Many of us have roots grown in the idea of unworthiness. We think we’re not good enough, that we’re not entitled to find bliss and happiness, that we don’t deserve whatever good things may be coming our way. That’s not true. You have the right to pursue whatever makes you shine.
Sometimes making the wheel turn and actually living in your highest calling is the hardest. Sometimes you’ll have to deal with whatever been sitting, stagnant, wasting away in the dark in the cellar. You have to do the work. And sometimes actually going for what you want is scary, sometimes it’s even scarier than the dark. What’s stopping you from getting what you want? Is it something out of your hands, or is it you? Because you have two choices- let it go and find another path or believe with all of your damn heart that you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Sometimes pushing the wheel to start it’s what’s hardest. Sometimes it’s stepping out of the way and letting the wheel move. Sometimes it’s just you- but whatever it is… you deserve to see it happen.