Oh California!! It’s been such a lovely few days so far. I flew in on Friday, went to La Jolla for lunch, saw some seals and took in the sights. On Saturday we drove to LA to spend the day with what may as well be our family. When you’ve known the same people since you were 2, and you call their parents mom and dad and you’ve stayed in contact even though you’ve spent more than half your life on opposite coasts…you’re family. Seeing everyone was incredible, and being back in LA for the last time before I graduate college has left me feeling every feeling, all at once. LA has always been a very weird place for me energetically. I was super attached to Los Angeles growing up. We moved to our home in Woodland Hills when Alexandra and I were 2, and I spent the next five years in little Gabriela, 90s Aquarius child style euphoria. My days were most enjoyed biking around the cul-de-sac, licking coffee Popsicle from the Mexican supermarket down the street and bathing in giant plastic tubs outside. Our house had the most beautiful garden, with an arbor filled with roses., that occasionally led to the most magnificent inflatable kiddy pool I had ever seen. It was always so scary running through the triumphant arc into the garden- the probability of stepping on a thorn always felt exponential, but it was a risk I was always willing to take. I don’t know how to describe this bliss spent under the blue California skies. It was punctuated by trips to Baskin Robbins listening to the Spice Girls on blast and playing on the jungle gym of our temples preschool. There were trips to Emily and Amanda’s, once I missed a play date and was so jealous because Emily and my sister collected pine cones and turned them into pets. I think I’ve always been a weirdly spiritual child and it wasn’t until I got back to California that I was able to really connect to this energetically. My childhood was colored by the backyard of my family friends. The same ones that I spent this past weekend with, laughing and crying over home videos. I went outside to the garden (pictured above, duh) and it was just strange. Weird. Different. Realizing you’ll never be able to accurately describe your childhood experiences to anyone else and realizing you’ll never be able to relive them is weird. It’s heavy. The eclipse and Supermoon are inviting me to step back into that curiosity, the unyielding joy I felt as a child. I accept. And I think I am being invited to bask in silence. To listen. To enjoy the moments between this phase and the next.Obviously I chose to go to LA in all black- with this tank top I left here over Winter Break. I am very excited to have it back. I have had these wooden soled boots from Zara for YEARS and I love them. And my denim jacket and Bolo tie felt like the final touch. The key to being energetically confused? A good outfit. I swear to god/dess if you have something you feel confident, sexy and capable in, you will always feel grounded. That’s a secret, one that I am writing at 10pm from me to you. Use it wisely. If your auras in a funk or if you’re in an emotional turbine, wear something that makes you feel like the bad b**** you are. On Monday I got my wisdom teeth out, which means I spent the day in bed, eating ice cream and watching Harry Potter. I never need an excuse to do these things, but having one was refreshing. Yesterday I finally got out of the house for some lunch and coffee, to work on my latest pieces for Nylon and Broadly, and to generally enjoy San Diego. Andale.I also tried to do the whole “natural” makeup look thing yesterday and I’m not hating it! Of course I had to wear my zodiac shirt, you know because of the Supermoon and Eclipse. All the normal universal shenanigans going super speed and really hard. Today was spent at the doctor and eating at an amazing cafe in Del Mar, where a lovely lady from USC comes up to me and goes “Are you Gaby?!” Is this an existential riddle? AM I Gaby? Or am I just, Gaby. These are the thoughts that plague my mind. Anyway, yes- Gaby is me as I am she. Apparently she recognized me from a coffee shop I frequently visit in Columbia- and she said her friend follows me on Instagram. HA! How cool. It’s a small world. After lunch, my mom, Alexandra and I went to the Self Realization Fellowship meditation garden. If you’re in San Diego- GO. The garden is absolutely phenomenal. I definitely cried at all the beautiful flowers and their sweet faeries and the view. You walk up stairs through the most vibrant garden only to be greeted by the never ending song of the ocean and the most overwhelming view of the sea. The sun was shining and kissing my cheek. I turned my phone off and just spent time talking to the flowers, looking at all the cactus and just listening to mother nature. One of my favorite flowers was a cactus with huge spikes and the most delicate, vibrant pink flowers blooming at the very tips of the plant. You know how sometimes you just get a plant? Me too. The garden was incredible, and after we had to visit the gift shop (duh altar tressures) and guess what I got? A COMIC BOOK ABOUT GANESH AND ANOTHER ABOUT THE BHAGAVAD GITA. I had to. I am not sorry. Today was lovely, partially because I was singing along to the Beatles with my mom while we took in some beautiful views and partly because my face may still be a bit swollen but I put on makeup anyway.Sometimes it’s even the little things like exteriors of houses that remind you of what it feels like to love someone truly and deeply.
I hope you each find some peace today.
Until next time,