Unlike any other card in my tarot series, The Hermit found its way to me. I had scheduled to shoot with Mary but I had no idea what card to pick. And for the first time, I was okay with that- I didn’t want to know. So what did I do? I went inside, played some Chelsea Wolfe (aka my current obsession), took out my deck, and meditated on what exactly it is that I needed at that moment- what was the universe trying to teach me? I didn’t even divide the major or minor arcana, I wanted to pick a card that I was meant to work with, and it turns out I did. The Hermit urges us to go inward- it’s a wake up call to remember that we have all the answers we need within us, it’s just a matter of listening. Just like the turtle has it’s shell and it can retreat inward, finding it’s home wherever it is, so can we. This semester, this past summer, and this past year have been a whirlwind and they have taught me more about myself than any semester or summer or year prior. For the first time I don’t feel the need to prove myself to anyone, I don’t feel the need to make sure any certain person likes me. For the first time the only person I am focused on loving is myself, and when I pulled the Hermit it was like a love spell straight to my heart. I’d been wanting to turn inward, get back to my yoga practice and focus on what gives me inner purpose and all of the sudden, I was pulling this card to remind me that YES- that’s what I should do, that’s what I needed, and that’s what I did. What does The Hermit teach us? The Hermit speaks of vulnerability, of shedding your layers and moving inward, of finding the answers in your own connection to the universe, to the world around you, and to yourself. In The Wild Unknown deck, it says the Hermit’s one of the most valued and celebrated creatures because through going inward, The Hermit’s able to find knowledge and wisdom it can share. The Hermit is a cosmic kick in the butt to just stop, to listen, meditate and ponder- the most important things in this life are the moments we often rush over, the pearls of beauty we find in ananda- the bliss of being.
The idea of the turtle really resonated with me when I was trying to figure out how to represent this card. The simplicity of wearing your home on your back is both obvious and profound, and the idea of finding home in my own bones is something I’ve been trying to work with. I decided to wear my spiked leather jacket for this post because it’s a barrier between me and the world- it gives me the confidence and strength to own my sh**. Pieces like my leather jacket are my shell- they’re my protection as I move through this life, especially as someone who can be passed over as vulnerable or weak because of my small frame. I wore a vintage nightgown that I got from Ivory for this same reason- there’s a sense of vulnerability that comes with wearing your home on your back. I wanted to represent going inward by wearing something really delicate. Embracing The Hermit means dealing with your own issues face on- finding them, learning from them and hopefully growing from them. It also means picking up your shell, knowing you’re your own home, and continuing along your own path as you explore what it means to tune into yourself. Of course, I had to reinterpret the classic version of this card, (green!) cape and all. So thankful for Mary who always takes amazing photos and helps my vision come to life.
Here’s to going inward.