Ah, the bittersweet (mostly bitter) realization looming in the air. It’s the last day of summer. In 12 hours I will be on my way to my first 8am of the semester. But alas, there’s a silver lining; it’s my last first day of school. Senior year of college, what a thought. It feels even more appropriate now to continue wearing black, all the time no exceptions, to mourn the passing of both summer and the past 15 years of my life which have been filled with school. I made my twin Alexandra Herstik take some photos of me the other day because I don’t wear my glasses often and I felt kinda cute. You know how sometimes that happens and you need photographic proof of it? Exactly. I never wear denim… except when I’m wearing this jacket, or my one pair of black Topshop jeans, or a pair of really sick torn up, high waisted, bleached denim I scored for $7, which I still need to post about. Anyway, back to this jacket- I was talking to my friend Zach about how I wanted a denim jacket and he said his mom gave him one from the 80’s and had no use for it, how fitting. I got some really cool pins from a lovely lady named Scout, and I added my Vivienne Westwood pin from Search and Destroy in New York. I threw on a Topman tee with my favorite shorts and shoes, both from Urban, and I wore my Zara bag with it. I topped this outfit off with a gold collar necklace by Marc Jacobs I got while I was in New York this summer.
Anyway. Summer’s almost over and I don’t really know what to think of it. It was a whirlwind of traveling and new experiences, people, internships, kicking people out (if it doesn’t serve ya..) and mostly just living. It’s been an incredible summer, the best yet, and although I’m not necessarily excited about school, I am in my own sort of special way. College is such a time of transition and impermanence… it’s strange being present and living somewhere that manages to feel so temporary. I’m right where I need to be though, and I’m where I would have wanted to be my freshman year; that’s a pretty nice realization.
Here’s to the best last first day there is, and here’s to the best twin there is.
Wednesdays are for wearing something extra dark and powerful. They’re for working at Hip Wa Zee, eating El Burrito and watching American Horror Story. Wednesday’s are a personal victory, an ode to the middle of the week, an ode to balance right before the weekend. One of my favorite things about this semester is how I’ve come to appreciate hump days. Granted, I only have classes two days a week, but regardless I feel like I never slow down. Although my Wednesdays are spent working, I’ve managed to find some sweetness in them. During the month of October, and the most hectic month of the year, my friend Ivory and I decided to have “Witch Wednesday”, in which, you guessed it, we dressed in our darkest clothes. If you remember my witch post, you’ll know that every day is witch-day for me.. but it is fun to have a day designated to wearing my favorite pieces. Witch Wednesday soon coupled itself with the return of American Horror Story and so began my love affair for this very special day of the week. Here’s the thing; life is crazy and hard and hectic, and during all of this we forget how good it can be. Here’s a trick; don’t wait for life to throw something wonderful at you, instead, make something to look forward to for yourself. For me, this means spending the day wearing an outfit that makes me feel like a Death Queen, working with one of my closest friends at work and then ending the day by watching my favorite tv show. American Horror Story: Freak Show is amazing and watching it with Ivory and my sister makes it that much better.Today, I paired my favorite tulip shorts with a harness bra, some knee socks and my favorite “Witch” bag.
Shorts, bra and shoes: Urban Outfitters/ Bag: Dollskill
PS: Check out Ivory’s amazing vintage shop, Forgotten Feather. She’s absolutely amazing.
I’ve been trying to figure out if life slows down when you find balance or if balance is using the least amount of effort possible to keep up with everything that’s going on. I’m not sure if either of these are right, or if there’s truly an answer at all. I think that finding balance is finding moments of stillness among chaos. I’m taking baby steps towards balance. I’m taking baby steps towards working hard without being overwhelmed. I’m taking one day at a time, tackling all I can do with a soft heart and loving mind. Lately, baby steps have been nothing more than sitting outside on my porch at 11pm, listening to some music, burning some incense and taking some time for myself to breathe. Balance, for me, is taking time to explore with my sister and to take baby steps towards finding stillness in the motions of day to day life.
Alex and I walked around and explored the statehouse on a eerie day. It was perfect and just chilly enough and the energy of the day felt charged with change. I’m ready for October. I am ready to find stillness and balance.
Jacket: Rag-O-Rama, Skirt, Purse and Necklace: Zara, Top: Forever 21, Boots: Urban Outfitters
Photos by Alexandra Herstik
Having a job where you wear a uniform is great for a few reasons. Namely, you don’t have to figure out what to wear everyday, and when you have an off day you can go all out. I’ve been doing my best to start documenting my outfits via Instagram once again, and thought it would be worth it to share them on here as well. I bought this incredible purse at work, Zara, since we’re having our sale and I’m obsessed. If you’re lucky enough to have a Zara near you, GO! I wish i was exagerating when I said the whole store is on sale..but I’m not. Be nice to the employees and go wild! Amazing pieces are up.
What have you been wearing?!