WILD SOUL HEALING TAROT CHALLENGE::: DAY 1

Hello one and all and Happy New Moon!!
I got to San Diego on Friday and have spent the past few days relaxing and adjusting. This New Moon has been a bit more subtle than others, the energy hasn’t been as sharp as it’s been in the past. Instead I’ve been faced with vivid dreams and a short temper. I’ve been slacking on my soul work so I was super excited to see that Linsday Mack of Wild Soul Healing put out a tarot challenge! A new month means new habits and a daily tarot practice led by one of my favorite healers seemed like the perfect place to start. I decided it would be something interesting (read::: scary// difficult// emotional // worthy) to share on here. I know that whenever I go through major shifts I’m not alone- we’re all way more connected than we think, so I like to share my own story when possible- so here you go!

:::DAY 1::: WHAT SEED AM I PLANTING THIS NEW MOON
THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE

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Sometimes I doubt the cards and then BAM- they hit me like a pile of bricks (or like a boy who suddenly tells me he’s sold his soul to Satan which is just as scary.) This New Moon I am planting destiny. I am planting my future and sowing the seeds to (hopefully) things larger than I can comprehend.  I start my dream internship with Vivienne Westwood next week and if you’ve talked to me about it, you know two things- 1. I’m freaking out 2. This feels like fate. I’m a fairly decisive person- I’ve always known what I’ve liked and what I’ve wanted and I knew that I needed to work with Vivienne. I know that what’s happening in my immediate future is big. It’s huge. It’s absolute, no chill, hard work paying off, manifestation station, soul pumping fate. It is destiny. It is The Wheel of Fortune in it’s entirety. This internship was the cumulation of a million emails, literally negative chill and an absolute belief that this is what I’m meant to do and where I’m meant to be. And you know what- that’s exactly what this card is.

The Wheel of Fortune symbolizes karma, hard work, surrender. It’s the cogs that start moving,  the ebb and flow of the tide and the pull of the moon. It’s equal parts hustle, letting go, and constant, unwavering belief. On one hand it can look like everything you’ve ever wanted, your wildest hopes and dreams come to fruition- like destiny. But success is an illusion- your only purpose right now is to exist. To love and to see. To use the present to manifest what you want without losing whatever’s going on right now.  The Wheel of Fortune is using what you’ve been given to craft something better, something more worthwhile but it can also hide behind the curtain of ego and whisper in your ear and tell you that your life would be better if you had more or were doing something better. There’s nothing wrong with challenging yourself- but destiny and fate are elusive. They’re written in whatever language you deem them in. What’s YOUR definition of fortune, of fate? Is it coming from what your soul needs or are you crafting your lifes work in the image of what someone else (or society) tells you to?IMG_1754I also pulled Nightmare from the Oracle of Oddities. It seems backwards, but sometimes our biggest fears are actually just sheep in sheeps clothes- ever heard of too much of a good thing? Sometimes our biggest dreams are actually the scariest. Many of us have roots grown in the idea of unworthiness. We think we’re not good enough, that we’re not entitled to find bliss and happiness, that we don’t deserve whatever good things may be coming our way. That’s not true. You have the right to pursue whatever makes you shine.

Sometimes making the wheel turn and actually living in your highest calling is the hardest. Sometimes you’ll have to deal with whatever been sitting, stagnant, wasting away in the dark in the cellar. You have to do the work. And sometimes actually going for what you want is scary, sometimes it’s even scarier than the dark. What’s stopping you from getting what you want? Is it something out of your hands, or is it you? Because you have two choices- let it go and find another path or believe with all of your damn heart that you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Sometimes pushing the wheel to start it’s what’s hardest. Sometimes it’s stepping out of the way and letting the wheel move. Sometimes it’s just you- but whatever it is… you deserve to see it happen.

Friday’s are for Ace of Cups

I love the tarot because after building a relationship with the deck weird things start to happen…like very strange things. You’ll shuffle a deck really, really well only to have the same exact card that just fell out of the deck mid-shuffle come up. Or, you’ll think about how you don’t pull a card a lot and then pull it. Or, perhaps, you’ll draw a card of the day in the morning, go about your day, come home,  decide you want to blog about a tarot card, put the card back in the deck, reshuffle the deck and pull the same exact card as you did that morning. Sometimes you can’t ignore the signs (especially when they’re pretty much cosmic and probably coming from the universe.)  So , today I’m blogging about the Ace of Cups.

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Yoshitaka Amano

Ah, the Ace of Cups. The card of new emotional beginnings, a card that sings of new love. The whole uncanny tarot thing also manages to go back to the idea that you pull cards that really speak to where you are in the moment, even if you don’t want to admit it. For the first time since September I’m in a place where everything feels new and fresh and free. I’ve come back from London, we sold our house, I know I’ll be in New York City for at least a little (interning with Rick Owens for Market Week!). There’s just this whole feeling that things are shifting and changing and transforming, especially with matters of the heart. I found some comfort before I left, in someone who I thought would eventually become a semi- permanent fixture in my life. Things never go as planned though. Life is tricky and distance is trickier and sometimes people who are meant to be in your life aren’t. I think it’s important to let go of what doesn’t serve you but I’m also the head gal to tell you that the universe is working in your highest favor, and that if things and people are meant to be in your life in the future…they will be. So you know what? For now,  I’m basking in the unknown, and floating in the sweet abyss that is transformation and new beginnings.

ace 2And then.. the Ace of Cups shows up. With its beautiful chalice and water and wonderful promise of new beginnings. There’s love in the air! There’s a promise of new beginnings! And you know what?  That’s pretty reassuring. But one of the reasons I wanted to write about this card was because sometimes the best thing you can do to channel the Ace of Cups is focus and love yourself. The universe always seems to be working on the law of least resistance; you have to let go to make things happen. If we put all our energy into one thing its like putting a kink in a hose; it won’t flow as smoothly. So, instead of focusing on loves beginnings, it’s important to take time and focus on ourselves every once in a while, so we have what we want sorted out before we share it with someone else. Fall in love with yourself before you let someone fall in love with you (or before you fall in love with someone else). Love all your weird quirks and the way your hair looks when you first wake up and how you sing along to your favorite song and how silly you probably look when you talk to your dog. Embrace who you are because as soon as you do, the universe will cheer you on and embrace you right back.

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Antonella Castell

The Ace of Cups is a reminder to be open to the universe and who it brings into your life. It’s a reminder that like death, when one door closes another opens; to have loves beginnings, there must be a sort of ending before it.

Here’s to the next chapter.

Gabriela

POWER

It’s almost halfway into the first month of the new year. It’s been 2015 for two weeks! Who would have thought. And although it’s been an incredible two weeks, I think that it’s also the perfect time to step back, asses, and once again, dig deep. Things are constantly shifting and changing, and it’s in the moments when I resist that change that I have to step back and ask why. Personally, there comes a point when I’m drifting to sleep that my body is totally and utterly relaxed and I start to feel like I’m floating. It’s almost like pre-lucid dreaming; a moment when I can retain awareness without fully being conscious of it. I always have really interesting realizations during this point in my messed up sleep cycle (I love staying awake super late) and this happened the other night. It was about power. Who would have guessed. image3Power. It’s a word I throw around often. I love “dressing to feel powerful”, and being able to “channel my power” for whatever ending I’m hoping happens as a result. I love harnessing my own power. My personal power is a completely separate entity to power or control over others; I don’t want to have power over other people or situations. I am never for the game of manipulation. But power can be dangerous; it can consume us. Power can be an egos driving force. For someone who likes to plan, and who uses logic and who loves knowing what’s going on, power can be dangerous. Having so much control over myself, and my spirit and my own power means it’s harder for me to deal with people and situations that I can’t control. My thirst for empowerment has left me with a real need to surrender. I can wear all the black I want, and wear red lipstick and I can feel so powerful, but at the end of the day, sometimes letting go is the most powerful action I can perform.image1

Kim Krans, the artist behind The Wild Unknown tarot deck, posted this spread on Instagram. One card for each month of the year, with one card being the overarching “theme”. Two weeks into the month and I finally had enough time and energy to follow through. It seems as if this year is all over the board, from heartbreak and self empowerment to finding comfort in my home. The theme for the year, however, is one of my favorite cards, The Moon. View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabbiAh, the moon. She’s inspired photoshoots, poems and hopefully in 15+ years, my daughters name. The Moon, however, can be a somewhat questionable card. In this deck, it’s credited with “lack of direction, vivid dreams and fears”. The moon, however, to me, is linked with goddess, intuition and a consciousness that’s not always readily available during the day. The moon is darkness, and it’s true, in the dark directions get muddy and tangled, and often you will find yourself lost. After realizing my thirst for personal power, however, the words “lack of direction” sort of feels refreshing. Lack of direction could mean existing in the moment, with nowhere to be but now. Lack of direction could mean lack of power, a vulnerability that once again, is necessary for growth. Vivid dreams. Fear. Ahhh, fear, an old friend. Look how you’ve woven yourself into my year. What scares me more than not having power? Nothing.  And I’ve learned to bask in my fear, in trusting that there’s growth to be found in it. To me, The Moon means existing in the moment, surrendering to the present, vivid intuition and finding growth through what scares you the most.

image22015. It’s a year that will be linked to the moon, and fear, and surrendering. This year I will love more, resist less and let myself exist. Power is important, but there’s an effortlessness necessary in maintaing that sort of power, isn’t there?

Here’s to all the surrendering that comes with letting this year unfold.

Namaste,

Gabriela

A Ritual for the New Year

Hello lovers, I hope everyone has had a fabulous holiday season! It’s absolutely insane to think that the new year is right around the corner, but it’s also quite a relief. 2015 sounds more concrete than 2014, at least to me, (I’m a fan of the number 5), and I’m excited for the fresh start the new year seems to bring. I think it’s important to find closure with what the past year has taught us, and I also think it’s important to think about what we want the next year to hold. I decided to share a little ritual that I practice at the end of the year, and whenever I feel the need for some closure.

9[1]RITUAL FOR THE NEW YEAR

My favorite ritual is pretty simple and it’s just three steps! It’s a simple way to release your baggage from the past year and a great way to really cultivate the idea of what you do want this next year. You’ll need a few things; some sage, or incense or salt ( I chose to use sage), whatever crystals you feel like represent what you want in the forthcoming year (ie rose quartz for love), some paper and a pen, fire, whether it’s a fireplace or a match and a sink (BE CAREFUL) and any tarot or oracle cards you want. Gather all your materials, find a sacred space and you’re ready to begin!

8[1]1. GATHER YOUR SUPPLIES. CENTER. BREATHE

I chose to draw a card for 2014, Daughter of Wands, and one for 2015, The High Priestess. I burned some sage, gathered my stones, and grabbed my Kwan Yin, Ganesh and raven statue. I grabbed a pen and paper and found myself by my fireplace ready to contemplate and write. Grab whatever it is that makes you feel at peace, whatever it is that represents what you want to cultivate for this next year. Find a quite place where you can write and think and reflect. I wanted my god and goddesses and animals and crystals as physical reminder of my beliefs and what I want this next year to hold. Ganesh is the remover of obstacles, and Kwan Yin is the goddess of prayer, very appropriate in this situation! Sit and think about this past year and this next year, about what you want to hold onto and what you want to let go of, for as long as you need.

7[1]2. WRITE

Here’s the fun part. I love writing, and I love writing letters. At the end of the year, I like to write two letters to the universe; one for the past year, one for the upcoming year  I go through and reflect on what I’ve learned, and who’s come into my life (and left). I think about everything this past year’s taught me, and I thank the universe for it. Then, in a separate letter, I write what I want to do and learn in this upcoming year. Here’s the best part; nothing is too big for the universe. I love to go into detail about what I want, creating my own future from the inside out. There’s no need to be modest, no one else is seeing this letter after all!  Think about what this past year has taught you and think of how you can use that in the next year. Reflect, take time to really think about what it is that you’ve learned and what exactly it is that you want and write it down.

5[1]3. BURN YOUR LETTERS

Okay, maybe I spoke to soon. Burning your letter is the best part of this little ritual. Once you’re finished writing, burn your letter and release the energy into the universe. I love throwing my letters into the fire place and seeing them burn, there’s something so satisfying about seeing your words dissipate into nothingness, it feels so final and complete. It’s wonderful closure and a wonderful beginning, everything that makes the new year feel especially exciting. If you don’t have the luxury of a fireplace, a match and a toilet or sink are just as good. If you have no fire at your disposal, tearing up your letter is a perfect substitute. Take time to sit with the finality of burning or cutting your letters; and realizing that there’s a fresh new beginning right around the corner. 10[1]3[1]2[1]4[1]6[1]1[1]

No matter what you plan on doing this new years, have fun, be safe and be thankful! There’s a wonderful, fresh start right around the corner. EMBRACE IT!

What’s your favorite new years ritual?.

Namaste,

Gabriela

Photos by Alexandra Yael

The Hanged Man

Perspective is everything. Much like judgment, how we see things has a huge impact on our lives and our realities. We may feel stagnant, but the truth is we are not; we are creatures of the universe, constantly evolving. As our lives change, so must our perspectives. This idea is present in the 12th card of the tarot deck, The Hanged Man. This card reminds us to change our perspective, let go of ego, and embrace the sort of rebirth we feel when we see things in a  new light. The Hanged Man is a great reminder to listen to our intuition, and stop resisting what is. Just like the bat uses echolocation to see, we are reminded to use our intuition in the same respect.

When I draw this card in a reading, I am reminded to step back, see every possibility and then tune in to my own intuition to see  how my perspective can change.  There is no wrong or right in this life, things just are as they should be. I chose a floral shirt to represent growth and rebirth and a slick leather style skirt to represent how we must let judgments pass over us without resistance. The darker color pallet and oversize knit shawl were inspired by the aesthetic of the card itself, which shows a bat hanging upside down. I was inspired by pieces that make me feel powerful, intuitive and strong.

Shawl and Shirt: Urban Outfitters/ Skirt: Topshop/ Necklacce: Zara/ Shoes: Jessica Simpson

Shot by the amazing Mary DeCrescenzio. Tarot deck is The Wild Unknown.

What do you need to change your perspective of?

Namaste,

Gabriela

The High Priestess

There has always been a certain sort of softness and admiration in my heart for women who cultivate their own strength and power. I am lucky enough to have been surrounded by these sort of females my entire life. My grandmas, my mother, my aunts, my family friends, all bask in their femininity and harness their own strength to manifest whatever it is they so desire. Each women on this earth is a high priestess in her own rite; she has her own inner connection to goddess, to parts of her consciousness that are unbeknownst to others. The High Priestess card represents a connection to the unconscious, to goddess, to the earth. The high priestess is a walker between two worlds.

The tiger does a good job of representing both assertiveness and intuition, while the crystal ball she guards can represent connection to what’s to come and the unknown. The high priestess has ties to what lies ahead; she is an oracle and she basks in her own wisdom.

My friend Yash handmade this dress, which I paired with a shoulder chain from Nasty Gal, a lace cardigan from American Thread, a scarf from Zara and some Jeffrey Campbell shoes.

What is it in you that connects to a higher power? What part of you resonates within the universe?

Namaste,

Gabriela