There’s something sort of sweet about fear. With the idea of the unknown comes, well, the unknown, and often this conjures up feelings up of anxiety and it’s sister, fear. With a new year comes a fresh start, a new page, and a brand new opportunity to step out of your routine and out of your comfort zone. It’s scary, and terrifying, it’s uncomfortable and anxiety inducing; it’s change. It’s the unknown. It’s the wilderness. Yet with this realization that there’s fear comes the simple idea that there’s strength, knowledge and growth to be found in that same fear. How beautiful is it to be reminded that we must be scared to find change; we must be the pioneers to find new, uncharted territory. The new year promises yet another unknown, and a beautiful, clean slate. Today I’ve been basking in fear and remembering that there’s no growth to be found in your comfort zone, that perhaps being scared is the best gift one could have. Being scared means adventure is ahead. Tomorrow, I am crossing the great pond to begin my semester at the London College of Fashion. I’m ready and I’m packed, but I’m nervous and a bit scared. I don’t know what to expect, but I do know that I have all the tools I need to be okay. Today was an incredible reminder that no matter what, even countries away, I will always have a support system. I spent the day with my best friend and my twin sister, going to Waffle House, enjoying some coffee, taking photos in fields and watching Sweeney Todd. I even celebrated my birthday with the twin a month early since we’ll be apart as we celebrate for the first time (I’ll turn 21 before she does, how funny). Today, I remembered that I will always have my tribe. It was an amazing beginning to the year, and a wonderful last hoorah before I leave. No matter where I go, I will always have the strength that my family and friends have instilled in me, and that’s a pretty beautiful start to the year. Today, take a moment to remember the strength you need to survive this world is already inside you. Perhaps the key to unlocking this strength is fear, and realizing that it’s okay to be scared. I’ve had all my clothing packed since Monday, so I’ve had the same five pieces on rotation since. Since I’m not bringing this skirt with me to England I thought it would be perfect to spend the day in.
Skirt: Vintage/ Sweatshirt: Zara/ Boots: Steve Madden/ Sweater and Jacket: H&MHere’s to the best year yet. Cheers!!
Photos by Alexandra Herstik, @alexyael