Okay folks, my time in London is coming to an end and I STILL can’t believe how fast it’s gone by. I’ve been absolutely HORRIBLE at posting, and I can’t apologize enough. If you keep up with me on instagram, you’ll be able to see more of my day-to-day, and hopefully once I’m back in the states I’ll be posting more. I don’t have classes on Tuesday and I decided that instead of shopping or sleeping or drinking coffee that I would spend some time outside and explore a new cemetery. I went to Tower Hamlets Cemetery Park to think, center and reflect, appropriate on #tombstonetuesday.
I’ve been trying to find my footing in uncertainty. My parents are moving back to San Diego in the next couple of months, we’re all moved out of our house (which I said goodbye to before I left), and I still don’t know what I’ll be up to this summer. Throw in an over-analyzing brain, a girl who likes to know where she stands in other peoples lives. leaving somewhere you’re finally finding your footing in and the idea of graduating college in a year and you have the perfect combination of lots of things and emotions going on at once (hence this horridly long run on sentence). So, I decided to do what I do best; get lost in my thoughts and wander around in a cemetery and think and all that stuff.
I’m a firm believer in taking time to connect to something, whether it’s art or the earth, religion or the universe.. I don’t think feeling isolated and small will serve you, especially if you let it overtake you. I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means for me to believe in something else and I’ve been trying to find that sweet spot where presence, connection and surrender meld into one. I believe in reincarnation, and I think that the idea of something after I die makes me grateful for every aspect of this life, including the idea that one day there will be something else, that one day (in many, many, MANY, years) when I die, it won’t be the end. By seeing death as a new beginning I’m left feeling more grateful for everything that I have and everything that I will have, in this life and the next.I decided to connect to my spirit guides and my own intuition and the universe today, inspired by the idea of gratuity and death and new beginnings. The best way I could think to do this was to explore a new place. I spent a little time in the cemetery and I think it was exactly what I needed. I love cemeteries for a few reasons, but especially because I like thinking about how each grave must hold an endless amount of stories by its inhabitant. Old graves hold secrets and stories from a world I’ve never even known, and if that’s not something that makes you think…I also think there’s something beautiful about going back to the earth, and I think that cemeteries hold a sort of veil and energy that’s not found anywhere else. Also, the romantic side of me thinks that true love is being buried next to the person you love.Anyway, it was beautiful and sunny and windy and the crows and birds kept me company. I left feeling lightheaded from all the energy and connected… sometimes that’s all you need to change your mindset. If you’re in London, I definitely suggesting taking some time to explore Tower Hamlets Cemetery. It’s beautiful and a good place to go to find some peace.