:::HELLO 2017:::

Happy 2017!
It feels absolutely insane to be able to say that! This year has been an incredible one- one that’s caused me to neglect this blog for the exact reason I created it. Seven years ago, I started Breathing Fashion as a way to get into fashion writing. It’s worked! Over the past year I’ve written for Nylon (and picked up a monthly column along the way,) Broadly, The Hoodwitch, Refinery29, Fashionista, i-D, Sabat Magazine and have continued contributing to The Numinous. I graduated college, moved to Los Angeles, landed a PR internship at Vivienne Westwood (who’s my spiritual style icon) and have managed to blog here and there. I’ve made some incredible new friends, I’ve cut out toxic people in my life, I have grieved- for myself, for this country, for our world- but oh, have I celebrated.

And I think that’s the point right? It doesn’t matter if celebrating is taking a long, luxurious bath or going on vacation or connecting with the ocean at the beach. Taking some time to myself, doing what I need to honor where I’m at emotionally has been a huge part of my year. Celebrating the lows, as well as the highs, has also been a theme.

Alexandra and I went to visit our parents in San Diego for Hanukkah and I decided it was finally the perfect time to shoot my collaboration with Transient Co. I love the look of tattoos but don’t have any, so working with Transient Co, who specialize in earth and nature inspired temporary tattoos, was really fun. Alex and I shot this set at the dog beach, so really, what more can I ask for? I love that Transient Co thinks your physical body should reflect the natural beauty of the earth, no matter how you see fit.
1-0546 2-0561This was the perfect shoot to start the new year. Climbing along rocks and being half naked in front of onlookers playing with their dogs on Christmas eve felt right. This year has felt really rocky, and very vulnerable for myself and probably a lot of you as well. Many of us are scared for the future, for our friends and family who are minorities, and for ourselves if we are minorities… May those of us who are privileged use our voices to scream into the world. May we never turn a blind eye to injustice. May we walk into the new year with heads high and voices louder. And, may we venture into the year with the stillness and innate wisdom of the Earth.

Here’s to 2017- I’m cheering you on. 

3-05654-05687-05908-05929-059614-062915-0636last2-0662last-065817-065310-060311-0604All photos by Alexandra Herstik/ @alexyael
Faux Tattoos by Transient Co / @transientco 

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NEW MOON WHO DIS

This past weekend was amazing but very heavy energetically. The Scorpio New Moon had me feeling heavy with contemplation, examining the cycles of my life as they present themselves in new ways. Halloween on Monday meant the veil between this world and the spirit realm was at its thinnest. Halloween is the day that spirits can come and go as they please, as can faery. Halloween weekend was the first time it’s been rainy and overcast since I arrived in LA three months ago. It felt like Autumn and it was beautiful but also very strong. I was on edge and vaguely anxious but spending time with my favorite people helped- a bit of hot chocolate, seeing a little boy in a dinosaur costume, and buying a cute scrunchy also helped. The energy is still strong so take time for yourself. Take a bath, reflect on the past month, go to a therapist, make some art- do what you need to do to make sure you’re in the safest, healthiest place you can be. Wear something that makes you feel good about being in your body if you can.

Wear a little color, layer up and enjoy the ride. img_8959img_8960img_8963img_8961img_8962Sweater:: Zara// Jeans:: American Apparel// Bomber:: Urban Outfitters// Shoes:: T.U.K

Photos::: Alexandra Herstik ( @alexyael)

THIS IS HALLOWEEN

Welcome Witches! Happy Halloween!
It’s our season. It’s the time of the waning year and with the darkness comes an extra dose of magick. This past Halloween weekend in LA was extra special for a few reasons, one of them being because it was actually gloomy and raining! The energy at this time of year is always thick, fuzzy with the energy that comes with the veil between this world and the next thinning. And the gloomy, dark, overcast weather lent a wonderful, although heavy, energy to the Halloween festivities. One of my best friends Cory was visiting for the weekend and being able to show him gloomy LA was the perfect Halloween welcome.

14591838_10153824765836207_6460138977780490973_nFriday for work I dressed up as Wednesday Addams, again. I already had this set and I got this harness and these shoes at Deandri’s warehouse sale last weekend- they were begging to be worn together!img_8767

Friday night was an extra special treat because I got to see one of my favorite bands, Balance & Composure, for the first time in two years. Seeing them in LA was completely unexpected but amazing. I decided to prove my commitment and dress up as Sparkle Motion which made dancing a little bit more special and way more fun. I thoroughly enjoyed channeling my inner Samantha Darko.

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Halloween is the perfect time to bring out the most outlandish pieces from my closet and wear them all at once. I got this latex dress from Valfre about a month ago and was so excited to finally pair it with a fresh shave! I wore this during the day Saturday before going full Halloween that night.  I also loved seeing so many random people (mostly children!) dressed up, out and about during the day. I love being able to be especially out there at this time of year, when people are less worried about what others will think, heck you can be whoever you want on Halloween! How special is that.

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Saturday night I went out with some friends and decided to dress up as Black Phillip. Of course. Black Phillip is a character in the The Witch, a period piece about a family of English settlers in the early 1600’s who have a firsthand encounter with a Witch. It turns out their family goat, Black Phillip, isn’t as innocent as he seems…maxresdefault

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I  even had a book so people could sign their souls to me. I wore a vintage bathing suit, thigh high fishnet stockings, TUK creepers and a Disturbia jacket. I had to wear my horns a little lopsided but what can you do! I contoured my face with some gray makeup, drew on a nose and some freckles and called it a night.

img_8885My twin sister Alexandra was the Upside Down so of course we had to get a photo. It’s not everyday you can sign your soul away to the Devil in the Upside Down .img_8877We ended Saturday night with some Mexican food…as if I couldn’t love Halloween any more. Processed with VSCO with a6 preset

Sunday was spent eating brunch, walking around, enjoying the creepy and unnerving weather and modeling in front of beautiful pink walls (which I will post photos of in the next few days!) Halloween is the perfect time to wear what you want, love who you want and be what you want.14882172_10153833402691207_12386625749246764_oToday I dressed up as my Queen and came into work! Ha! Halloween is for fun and what’s more fun than dressing up as your idol//boss? Nothing. I’m so thankful that I’ve got to dress up so much for the holiday. Tonight I will be holding a ritual and performing divination. It’s the perfect time to reflect, honor those who have passed and take time to plan on what you want in the next year.

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday!

XO
Gabriela

Neon Lights in the City of Angels

It is the time of the waning year. The sun is saying his last goodbyes as he gets ready to wrap himself in a shimmering, iridescent blanket of stars and slip into hibernation. The energy is twinkling as well, neon blues and pinks are in the air as the veil between this world and the spirit realm softens, smoothed out by a dose of glamour. October is around the corner, and with it the promise of darker days, shrouded in mystery and ties to parts of ourselves we seem to forget in the warmer months. 2-8590This is a time of exploration, of curiosity- a time of intense introspection and rebirth. The wheel of the year is shifting to a season that celebrates the light but invites and honors the darkness to come. The Equinox was last week, a day of intense balance and energetic equilibrium. It is officially Fall, and with that comes an extra dose of new, creative energy. 3-8591My sister Alexandra and I live down the street from the bookstore, plenty of stores and resteraunts, a cool newsstand and a Trader Joes. Saturday’s have been spent eating delicious food, walking around in the hot Los Angeles climate and bathing under neon signs. The energy this past week has been intense- I’ve felt like a snake shedding its skin. It’s been two years since I moved into my last apartment, two years since I started getting ready for London, two years since I had to do a lot of reevaluating with who I let into my life. All this energetic baggage I’ve been carrying the past two years is finally dissipating. The equinox was on the 22nd- I am 22, my birthday is on 2/2 and I’m a twin- so I really felt the weight of this seasonal shift and I’m using the momentum to move forward in a positive, beneficial and creative manner. Now I’m left with a new, shiny skin, a fresh set of eyes and an excitement for life that can only come from moving to a new city. 4-85921-8580I’ve been more intentional with what I buy- I am extremely picky with jackets and when I tried this metallic one on from Zara I knew I needed it, and that it’s not something I will probably ever get sick of. I’ve also been lusting after a pleated American Apparel skirt, so I bought this vintage cheerleader skirt from a local thrift shop as a dupe. A bandana, some sheer knee highs from Nordstrom Rack and my favorite cosmic bucket bag were the finishing touches on this look. I’m a firm believer in only wearing what you LOVE. There is nothing quiet as euphoric for me as spending the day in an outfit I love- very often other things I love will follow.5-86046-86057-8611grab1-8617img_86228-8625Spend time with people you care about. Go to the cemetery. Leave flowers at beautiful graves. Go outside. Talk to the trees. Make some art. Sit under the full moon.

All photos by one of my favorite humans in the world- Alexandra.

I love you.

Gabriela

Manifesting Stillness

I have been learning to slow down. Or trying to. I have been trying to find time for stillness. For silence. For steadiness. I am learning to find a mirrors in others, to find how my impatience is a reminder to love the parts of myself that still have to be polished like a precious crystal. I have been trying to take some time to honor the parts of me that are so frustrating and fast and unwilling to be spoken with. I am trying to find time to listen to myself when I get frustrated or anxious or sad with people or myself.FJ5A6499_resize (3)I have spent some time the past couple of nights honoring myself. I’ve taken a bath, facetimed with friends, done yoga, relaxed and watched movies. I’ve incorporated some simple rituals into this – namely this one from The Numinous. I’ve typed some words and I’ve had some breakthroughs simply because I have given myself enough space from what I feel and what is expected. I am trying to take my hands off the wheel to believe in the easiest way possible. I am learning and harnessing the powers I have as a manifester and I am using them to create. But I am learning to listen to the moments between the breakthroughs and love all the inconsistencies about them that make me so frustrated. I am writing love poems to myself on a typewriter only to mess it up because I have so many words all at once that I cannot slow down my hands fast enough to stop. I am forgiving myself for never stopping but I am learning to find a happy medium anyway. FJ5A6465resizeFJ5A6511 (1)FJ5A6510_resize2All photos by my beautiful friend Bree Burchfield.love poemToday’s words on my beautiful typewriter. I am slowing down.

On Forgiveness

The other day I posted this on Instagram:

Tonight’s self portrait is inspired by forgiveness. I’m very much aware of my anger. Of my defensiveness. Of the way that I put up a wall when I feel threatened or hurt or attacked. I am very much aware of my imperfections like the fact that even after I let people go I still think about them and hold onto their words. Today I forgive- myself and those who hurt me. Today I am inspired by @louniverse message to forgive others not necessarily because they deserve it, but because you do. Today I forgive my inner scorpion. I forgive the little girl inside me who just wants to impress people and make everyone happy and have everyone love each other. Today I forgive the part of me that is angry and lashes out. Today I forgive myself for hurting others simply because I was hurting. Today I forgave someone who hurt me and today I forgave myself for ever hurting them back. Anyway- I am about to go shower with some lavender salt scrub and then eat cookie butter ice cream and watch a movie. 

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And today I wanted to expand a bit on this beautiful, sacred, idea of forgiveness. And honestly, I’m not even sure what will come of this post, but i feel like I need to write- and I’ve learned to not ignore that itch when it comes up. So, here we go. Oh forgiveness. It seems easy but it’s hard. It’s really, really hard. In my case I forgave someone who I made myself vulnerable with- someone who saw a lot more of me than anyone else and in the end wasn’t truly worthy of that. I was hurt. I was hurt and left with no closure except that which I created for myself. And I think that’s the first step to forgiveness- allowing yourself to create the closure that YOU need. So YOU can move on. Because it’s easier to go back and appreciate a gash when it’ already turned into a scar- you do not have to live with raw pain.You are allowed to feel and heal.

 A lot of my relationships (I use this word very loosely) have ended with me having to create my closure. And forgiveness is damn hard when you don’t feel like you have any answers. But sometimes you just have to forgive, not for the other person, but for yourself, so you can let go of the rope you’re holding onto and just move forward. In my case, I was contacted by someone I had done my best to forget in the past six months and I was left with a flurry of feelings- including the fact that I felt nothing, but I still felt raw? Open? Vulnerable. Because I had never forgiven- him or myself- and that wound had never truly healed. After my inner Scorpio moon came out and I was on the offense- I felt tired, overwhelmed and over it. I had been hanging onto this hurt, this borderline hate, which honestly was necessary at the time so I could move on, but I realized- I needed to forgive him and myself. I am not completely innocent either, my hurt doesn’t excuse my action of hurting someone else. So that night, I showered, worked with my tarot and wrote. And now, I am taking baby steps to heal, fully and intentionally. But another thing came up the next night-

I did a tarot reading last night for myself and a mantra popped into my head. “I don’t need to know the answers right now”. I like knowing. I like knowing about people and the universe and myself. I’ve been going through a past life crisis (HA! A story for another time) that just brought back a lot of feelings and questions about myself and past relationships. And there were many things I wanted to know since closure didn’t give me many answers. And there’s a point in the mad quest for the truth, or for what feels like it, when you just have to stop and surrender. And that’s what I am choosing to do. I am choosing to face the wild unknown. I am choosing to not worry about the answers. My wonderful friend @kelseawoods sent me this quote by Rilke today:: “Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” You don’t need to know all the answers right now. Right now you just have to be. A photo posted by Gabriela Lorraine (@gabyherstik) on

This mantra popped into my head.
I do not need to know the answers right now.
And what a relief that is. I’ve been going through what feels like a past life crisis, I’m sure this human and I knew each other back in the Medieval period I swear to god. And I’d been having these feelings, these memories and this inclination that I was right. I wrote a piece on Medieval churches and witch marks, and then all this stuff started to overlap- how I’ve been working with witchcraft and faeries for 10 years, and then suddenly this person was back. After I had consciously made a decision not to contact him and asked the universe that if he was meant to contact me he would- and he did. And after forgiving him, after forgiving myself, I realized I do not need to know the answers. I don’t need to know if we were actually together in a past incarnation, I don’t need to know how he feels or how he felt.  All I need to know  is where I am in this moment.

And realizing that, realizing that I DON’T have to have everything figured out, feels like the biggest act of surrender I can have. We are not responsible for having everything lined up or figured out or understood. We are responsible for living in our highest purpose, for living in a place of peace and love and for working towards this as much as we can.

 

So today, I urge you all to live in a place of surrender, a place of forgiveness and a place of unknowing. Today I urge you to bask in the wild unknown.

XOXO,
Gabriela

SAYONARA 2015, SAN DIEGO AND THE BAHAMAS

So for the past week I’ve bee MIA floating around in the Atlantic Ocean, in the Bahamas on a cruise! I spent January 1st on the beaches of Nassau… if that’s not the boujiest thing I’ve ever said I don’t know what is. I spent the two weeks prior to that bumping around San Diego with the family, relaxing, eating some food, doing some shopping (my parents live in Fashion Valley if that’s any indication to the level of shopping excitement here). I’ve pet some dogs, taken some photos, drank some coffee- I’ve covered all my bases.W1AG8FohBDlIn3_L19Whfjm0kjppuALC4tmluR-XHGgjdrXQy780lQnO13S3hc-0frg24Nemevs1mB038Q1KrU,zNfxDrTYfGySJ6ri5O76exrYLTt7veW17JyN6OVb_lYI’ve been living out of a suitcase for the past three weeks which means my fashion choices have been somewhat limited.  I’ve done my best to have fun and you know, keep up the whole “goth relocated to west coast temporarily” vibe. If I’ve succeed is yours to decide…12523198_10153173012856207_5855025818653762782_n1619497_10153173012286207_2068573352008969265_nAlex took these photos of me one day when we were on the beach. It was absolutely beautiful. It was the first day that it had been overcast, and San Diego had this foreboding darkness sitting in it. It was eerie- the mix of the desert and ocean with the gloom was amazing. 12507624_10153173012381207_1827091296384253912_nI‘m addicted to these things. 12375316_10153137902116207_2082953977803972558_ooOne of the first days we spent on the beach. I felt like a gothic cactus. Fun fact: this beach in Del Mar has a dog beach, and it’s the absolute most beautiful thing I have seen. Literally, just dogs and their humans running around doing sweet pup things. #justdoggythings12360326_10153144023661207_111061716934321945_nI was going for the good ole classic “70’s goth”.  Camel is way close to my skintone and I don’t wear turtlenecks because my neck is really long but you know, rules are meant to be broken and I love this outfit. New year, same me, you feel? 921186_10153146535986207_8366571746141291094_o1California is really just a giant excuse for me to stand on rocks and hug palm trees while wearing all black. San Diego’s been in the high 50’s, low 60’s which is great but has left me wishing I had my entire closet in Columbia at my disposal. 1426256_10153173012621207_2959324186206802823_n1230_10153173012606207_6555715169230511286_nToday’s look aka- the last day in San Diego look. I spent the morning running errands with my mom and then at brunch. I was going to go blog (this!) at Starbucks but came home and decided I was too lazy. Good thing too- this are of San Diego just had a flash flood. Sending love and making sure everyone gets home safe! oooOur first stop on the cruise was in St Thomas, which is hilarious because that’s where my dad was working for a year! He would always watch the cruise ships leave from his condo, wishing he was on one, and now he got to experience it with his family. Full circles are cool.1375849_10153173012471207_4147198703685996788_ngothA beach goth in her natural habitat.12508938_10153173012306207_5159618080738532811_n12508694_10153173012521207_3529293081093103268_n12523067_10153173012371207_1649869921869739277_ntwoms12509758_10153173012716207_6100786112189836683_n10660269_10153173012541207_1246844248265301038_nSpent the first day of 2016 drinking liquid out of a coconut, reading Steinbeck , laying out in my tropical Topshop bathing suit and enjoying the company of my many, many cousins (babies, children and adults alike).12509013_10153173012646207_2812375073196288213_nI didn’t get any photos of my New Years Eve outfit except this one. I wore this metallic romper because I wanted to feel like a space nymph as the clock struck midnight and turned to 2016. I spent my NYE with the family, chugging extra-spicy tequila Bloody Mary’s (kidding mom, I only had three), dancing and celebrating. Not sure if I’m ashamed or proud of the fact that I had enough foresight to take an outfit selfie before I even left the cabin. I’ll go with the latter. 12417920_10153173012571207_823602217330459868_n12509375_10153173012441207_4831893228075218655_nTomorrow I fly back to Columbia to ring in the rest of 2016- my last semester of college and my last month left as 21. 2015- you were amazing to me (and deserve your own post!) Here’s to your best year yet.1628_10153173012406207_7228967062001406788_nXXX,
Gabriela

THE SELF-LOVE REVOLUTION

Earlier today I came across an article- but not any article. THIS article. One which says the “Strat’ uniform is revolutionary. For those of you who don’t live in an SEC college town with an ungodly amount of Greek life, that’s the code for sorority uniform- oversized shirt and Nike shorts. The revolution, I suppose, comes from the idea that dressing for comfort, and purely comfort, is revolutionary. The writer didn’t actually talk about this, they just put it in the title and never brought it up. So, I don’t know what’s revolutionary about wearing tee shirts and shorts. If you think dressing like everyone else, simply because it’s the easiest choice and it’s practical, is revolutionary. you’re wrong. Saying that this uniform is revolutionary is taking away from women and men like Coco Chanel, Christian Dior, Vivienne Westwood and Rei Kawakubo. You’re taking away from the importance of what we wear to express who we are, especially in terms of gender and social constructs. I’m not here to lecture you, I’m just saying you’re wrong. Fashion can be revolutionary, just not in the way you think. There’s an interesting feeling that comes with purposefully crafting the way you move through this life. If you’re able to shape the way you enter the world, if you’re ever given that opportunity and don’t take advantage- you’re missing something good. There’s a power that’s found in that sort of self- love, one that I would argue is revolutionary.You don’t need anyone else’s approval. The only person who has to be comfortable with who you are, with what you chose, with the way you live, is you. If we all loved ourselves without fail, and empowered one another to do the same- that would be revolutionary.

Carrying this self-love in the form of fashion is my personal revolution.

1My revolution comes in the form of soul style. Which, for me, is finding an aesthetic representation for my soul.This means all  black, bright lipstick, a half shaved scalp, beautiful lingerie and strong eyebrows. When I wear all black, I feel like there’s a silhouette and less detail- like I can be who I am without people being distracted or worried about the little things. They’re too busy taking in the bigger picture (and unintentionally feeling my vibes and aura). I feel an energetic alignment when I wear something that makes me feel connected to the night and to the universe, especially when it’s in the form of a kick-ass outfit. It is my opinion, that self-love is a radical revolution; ignoring it, is not.

Today my revolution came in the form of brunch, taking these photos with Alex, cleaning, and movie and craft night with Ivory. I wore a pink harness bra from Urban Outfitters, my Betsey Johnson earrings and a new Wet and Wild lipstick that is my current obsession (and only $2). My shirt was handed down from one of my favorite friends, and the shorts are from my work, Hip Wa Zee. Lot’s of love went into this outfit.

2 3 4 5 6 7810 11Team effort with the twin, in her own soul style. Alex is the best and her photography skills make me feel pretty, so thank you twin.

Here’s to a new revolution.

Here’s the Sundays with a little bit of soul (ha)
XXX,
Gabriela