THIS IS HALLOWEEN

Welcome Witches! Happy Halloween!
It’s our season. It’s the time of the waning year and with the darkness comes an extra dose of magick. This past Halloween weekend in LA was extra special for a few reasons, one of them being because it was actually gloomy and raining! The energy at this time of year is always thick, fuzzy with the energy that comes with the veil between this world and the next thinning. And the gloomy, dark, overcast weather lent a wonderful, although heavy, energy to the Halloween festivities. One of my best friends Cory was visiting for the weekend and being able to show him gloomy LA was the perfect Halloween welcome.

14591838_10153824765836207_6460138977780490973_nFriday for work I dressed up as Wednesday Addams, again. I already had this set and I got this harness and these shoes at Deandri’s warehouse sale last weekend- they were begging to be worn together!img_8767

Friday night was an extra special treat because I got to see one of my favorite bands, Balance & Composure, for the first time in two years. Seeing them in LA was completely unexpected but amazing. I decided to prove my commitment and dress up as Sparkle Motion which made dancing a little bit more special and way more fun. I thoroughly enjoyed channeling my inner Samantha Darko.

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Halloween is the perfect time to bring out the most outlandish pieces from my closet and wear them all at once. I got this latex dress from Valfre about a month ago and was so excited to finally pair it with a fresh shave! I wore this during the day Saturday before going full Halloween that night.  I also loved seeing so many random people (mostly children!) dressed up, out and about during the day. I love being able to be especially out there at this time of year, when people are less worried about what others will think, heck you can be whoever you want on Halloween! How special is that.

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Saturday night I went out with some friends and decided to dress up as Black Phillip. Of course. Black Phillip is a character in the The Witch, a period piece about a family of English settlers in the early 1600’s who have a firsthand encounter with a Witch. It turns out their family goat, Black Phillip, isn’t as innocent as he seems…maxresdefault

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I  even had a book so people could sign their souls to me. I wore a vintage bathing suit, thigh high fishnet stockings, TUK creepers and a Disturbia jacket. I had to wear my horns a little lopsided but what can you do! I contoured my face with some gray makeup, drew on a nose and some freckles and called it a night.

img_8885My twin sister Alexandra was the Upside Down so of course we had to get a photo. It’s not everyday you can sign your soul away to the Devil in the Upside Down .img_8877We ended Saturday night with some Mexican food…as if I couldn’t love Halloween any more. Processed with VSCO with a6 preset

Sunday was spent eating brunch, walking around, enjoying the creepy and unnerving weather and modeling in front of beautiful pink walls (which I will post photos of in the next few days!) Halloween is the perfect time to wear what you want, love who you want and be what you want.14882172_10153833402691207_12386625749246764_oToday I dressed up as my Queen and came into work! Ha! Halloween is for fun and what’s more fun than dressing up as your idol//boss? Nothing. I’m so thankful that I’ve got to dress up so much for the holiday. Tonight I will be holding a ritual and performing divination. It’s the perfect time to reflect, honor those who have passed and take time to plan on what you want in the next year.

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday!

XO
Gabriela

WILD SOUL HEALING TAROT CHALLENGE::: DAY 1

Hello one and all and Happy New Moon!!
I got to San Diego on Friday and have spent the past few days relaxing and adjusting. This New Moon has been a bit more subtle than others, the energy hasn’t been as sharp as it’s been in the past. Instead I’ve been faced with vivid dreams and a short temper. I’ve been slacking on my soul work so I was super excited to see that Linsday Mack of Wild Soul Healing put out a tarot challenge! A new month means new habits and a daily tarot practice led by one of my favorite healers seemed like the perfect place to start. I decided it would be something interesting (read::: scary// difficult// emotional // worthy) to share on here. I know that whenever I go through major shifts I’m not alone- we’re all way more connected than we think, so I like to share my own story when possible- so here you go!

:::DAY 1::: WHAT SEED AM I PLANTING THIS NEW MOON
THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE

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Sometimes I doubt the cards and then BAM- they hit me like a pile of bricks (or like a boy who suddenly tells me he’s sold his soul to Satan which is just as scary.) This New Moon I am planting destiny. I am planting my future and sowing the seeds to (hopefully) things larger than I can comprehend.  I start my dream internship with Vivienne Westwood next week and if you’ve talked to me about it, you know two things- 1. I’m freaking out 2. This feels like fate. I’m a fairly decisive person- I’ve always known what I’ve liked and what I’ve wanted and I knew that I needed to work with Vivienne. I know that what’s happening in my immediate future is big. It’s huge. It’s absolute, no chill, hard work paying off, manifestation station, soul pumping fate. It is destiny. It is The Wheel of Fortune in it’s entirety. This internship was the cumulation of a million emails, literally negative chill and an absolute belief that this is what I’m meant to do and where I’m meant to be. And you know what- that’s exactly what this card is.

The Wheel of Fortune symbolizes karma, hard work, surrender. It’s the cogs that start moving,  the ebb and flow of the tide and the pull of the moon. It’s equal parts hustle, letting go, and constant, unwavering belief. On one hand it can look like everything you’ve ever wanted, your wildest hopes and dreams come to fruition- like destiny. But success is an illusion- your only purpose right now is to exist. To love and to see. To use the present to manifest what you want without losing whatever’s going on right now.  The Wheel of Fortune is using what you’ve been given to craft something better, something more worthwhile but it can also hide behind the curtain of ego and whisper in your ear and tell you that your life would be better if you had more or were doing something better. There’s nothing wrong with challenging yourself- but destiny and fate are elusive. They’re written in whatever language you deem them in. What’s YOUR definition of fortune, of fate? Is it coming from what your soul needs or are you crafting your lifes work in the image of what someone else (or society) tells you to?IMG_1754I also pulled Nightmare from the Oracle of Oddities. It seems backwards, but sometimes our biggest fears are actually just sheep in sheeps clothes- ever heard of too much of a good thing? Sometimes our biggest dreams are actually the scariest. Many of us have roots grown in the idea of unworthiness. We think we’re not good enough, that we’re not entitled to find bliss and happiness, that we don’t deserve whatever good things may be coming our way. That’s not true. You have the right to pursue whatever makes you shine.

Sometimes making the wheel turn and actually living in your highest calling is the hardest. Sometimes you’ll have to deal with whatever been sitting, stagnant, wasting away in the dark in the cellar. You have to do the work. And sometimes actually going for what you want is scary, sometimes it’s even scarier than the dark. What’s stopping you from getting what you want? Is it something out of your hands, or is it you? Because you have two choices- let it go and find another path or believe with all of your damn heart that you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Sometimes pushing the wheel to start it’s what’s hardest. Sometimes it’s stepping out of the way and letting the wheel move. Sometimes it’s just you- but whatever it is… you deserve to see it happen.

5 EASY WAYS TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR HEART WHEN IT’S HURTING

First off- my heart, my thoughts, my prayers- my everything- are with the Black community and people of color. I don’t know what it’s like but I am here. I am listening. I see you and hear you and feel you and love you. I pledge to be an advocate, an ally and a help in any way, shape or form I can. To all my witchy mama’s and papa’s- you can do this spell from Story By Tarot or this ritual from The Hoodwitch if you feel helpless and don’t know what to do.

It is important to stand up when you see injustice. See a call for action and take it- talk to your politicians, call out racism and don’t be afraid to use your voice (this especially goes for white people! We are the ones who need to be carving out a space for everyone. That is not the conquest of the oppressed.)

BUT- don’t forget to take care of your own needs in the process. You must tend to your own heart before you can tend to the world. Self care in times of political and economic crisis are of the upmost importance. When you are scared of blooming, when you are too frightened to find the sun, you cannot give your light to anyone else.

 

Here are 5 easy ways to take care of your own heart when it’s hurting.

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1. Buy yourself flowers (or something beautiful)

You can spend under $5 (hello Trader Joes) and still get a beautiful bouquet. Or, you can go to your local farmers market and get yourself a bunch of weird flowers while still supporting your community, which is where I got the babes pictured above! Even if you’re not interested in the metaphysical properties of flowers, I swear- buying yourself some will make you feel better. There is something so soothing about the temporary beauty and soft spirit that comes with flowers. They look like magick, they’re effortless, they smell good and you can dry them. I always like to take self portraits when I buy flowers which leads us to…

2. Make art

Create something. Take a self portrait, write a poem. It doesn’t even matter if it sucks- just try. Enjoy the process. Get messy- finger paint , sculpt, make daisy chains. It doesn’t matter but I promise once you start to make something you’ll feel better. And, if your artwork turns into something beautiful, even better. Art is a physical manifestation of love, right?

3. Watch something funny

My pick is “It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia.” There’s something so comforting about how horrible the gang is. Laughter heals- it’s medicine. Laugh until your stomach hurts, laugh until you cry, laugh until you fart, laugh until you snort- this is a no judgment zone. Just make sure you laugh.

4. Clean

I hate cleaning. Seriously. I think it’s the worst. My definition of success is  being able to afford to hire someone to cook and clean for me. When my heart is upset (hello, today) I do like to clean! When your thoughts feel disorganized and heavy and dirty- cleaning is spiritual, both physically and energetically. Physically clearing your space allows your energy to relax. It clears the muck, it allows your aura to flow. Physically seeing the results of cleaning your environment gives your subconscious permission to do the same. Having a fresh space just feels better. Added bonus points if you smudge or burn incense when you’re done. It feels so good and even if it doesn’t- at least it’s clean!

5. Tell someone how much you love them

Take the time to text or call someone and tell them how much they mean to you. Then go deeper- why. How have they helped you evolve and learn about yourself? Tell someone why you love them and then tell them again and again. Have no one you want to talk to? Write a love letter to yourself. Passing on love makes your heart stronger. If you cannot receive love, give it until it comes back. It will come back.13620373_10153550675866207_7913389384887855294_nA crow flew by and this appeared as I began to write- what a beautiful omen. There is always light.

What’s your favorite way to heal?
XXXX
Gabriela

When Anxiety Gets Ahold of You

IMG_8732When things get hard, buy yourself flowers. Make yourself some tea. Read poetry. Write bad poetry and then write poetry that’s even worse than that- you have to start somewhere so just start. Write beautiful poetry about love. Write a poem on a napkin about someone who hurt you and then tear it up and throw it out. Wear something that makes you feel like stardust. Wear nothing but your skin. Sleep in late or wake up early and spend some time under the rising or setting sun. Tell someone you’re hurting. Ask them for their help. Breathe deeply- five in and five out. Take a photo that reminds you how beautiful you are. Take a bath. Go to therapy. Park your car at the top of your parking garage, open all the windows, blast your favorite album and dance until you can’t feel your legs. Go out. Spend some time in a coffee shop with a good book. Go over to a friends house and watch a bad movie- make funny comments the whole time. Buy a journal and cover every page with your worries- go over them and paint them into something else. Let them live there.

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Feel your feelings and don’t say sorry.

Manifesting Stillness

I have been learning to slow down. Or trying to. I have been trying to find time for stillness. For silence. For steadiness. I am learning to find a mirrors in others, to find how my impatience is a reminder to love the parts of myself that still have to be polished like a precious crystal. I have been trying to take some time to honor the parts of me that are so frustrating and fast and unwilling to be spoken with. I am trying to find time to listen to myself when I get frustrated or anxious or sad with people or myself.FJ5A6499_resize (3)I have spent some time the past couple of nights honoring myself. I’ve taken a bath, facetimed with friends, done yoga, relaxed and watched movies. I’ve incorporated some simple rituals into this – namely this one from The Numinous. I’ve typed some words and I’ve had some breakthroughs simply because I have given myself enough space from what I feel and what is expected. I am trying to take my hands off the wheel to believe in the easiest way possible. I am learning and harnessing the powers I have as a manifester and I am using them to create. But I am learning to listen to the moments between the breakthroughs and love all the inconsistencies about them that make me so frustrated. I am writing love poems to myself on a typewriter only to mess it up because I have so many words all at once that I cannot slow down my hands fast enough to stop. I am forgiving myself for never stopping but I am learning to find a happy medium anyway. FJ5A6465resizeFJ5A6511 (1)FJ5A6510_resize2All photos by my beautiful friend Bree Burchfield.love poemToday’s words on my beautiful typewriter. I am slowing down.

To anyone who has ever felt like they are not enough::

flowersOn days you feel like the shadow you may forget that each of your petals is still being kissed by the sun.  You bloom. You are rooted. You are the most precious seed. Intentional. Each touch of  light that has landed upon your flesh was sent down by the heavens to remind you that you are the most beautiful rose that has ever been. And will ever be. You feel like early morning baths or late night walks when the ground smells like the rain. Crystallized violets sweet on your tongue. You are a bounty of every good feeling all at once. You are plenty. You are so much  that the world could be cured of it all if you were to just open your heart and listen to it. It will tell you secrets. Like; you have a soul like the stars. You are infinite and you could be watched forever but never understood. You. You are too important to be understood and I would learn your dance for eternity.  You are a feeling, a place and a longing like a home you will never grow tired of. You are the song of the cosmos. A sound without words that still does not need an explanation. You are so worthy that I have heard the angels sing your name and praise the harmony of your spirit. You are a melody, a symphony. You are a universe and you will always be enough.

FEBRUARY IN REVIEW

It’s March. A NEW MONTH!! THAT MEANS ONE THING! CELEBRATE. 
I was super inspired by Mystic Mamma’s post for March with words by Lena Stevens from The Power Path.com It’s all about owning your power and using it to align yourself  with your highest good. A sneak peek at some of its goodness: 
“We must therefore decide at the beginning of the month, what side we want to be on: chained to old habits and obstacles or committed to finding new ways through the familiar challenges we face. This decision, more important than words can say, will shape the next six months and color our every waking moment, so best choose well! Instead we must get to know our feelings: how they arise, their triggers, their patterns and, most important of all, how we create, perpetuate and manage them.”

One of my favorite photos ever. Taken by Bree Burchfield. Blog post to come.

Whew. I don’t even know where February went, but my god did it go fast. February was a powerful month- an incredible one, but I’m sure I’m not the only one who was feeling all the vibes, and all at once.  February was a whirlwind- I turned 22, I started writing for NYLON (oh my god). I just submitted my third piece and I cannot WAIT for it. I am still freaking out about this. Harry Potter and witchcraft?! 11-year-old Gabriela is sobbing.12802974_10153270217871207_1279491026661285923_n 12806246_10153270217521207_1236613272635564711_n (1)

 

February was also great for wanderlust. For Valentines Day, my friend Bree and I headed to Asheville to cover  Unknown Mortal Orchestra  for Scene SC. She took care of photos, I took care of words. It was blistering cold but it was absolutely beautiful, and of course, turned out to be an adventure. It was lovely spending my Valentines Day with one of my favorite humans and one of my favorite bands. Also, the drive didn’t disappoint. 

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February was also spent dressing up and taking photos of the process. Bree took these, and I styled them, and I am so excited about it. This is just a sneak peek, these photos deserve their own post! 

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And I also started contributing to The Hoodwitch! My first post is “Five Ways to Let Out Your Inner City Witch.” I always wanted to have a cabin in the middle of the forest with herbs hanging from the ceiling and a hearth and giant cauldron. That hasn’t happened yet, so I wrote about utilizing the city for some magick. You gotta use what’s at your disposal! city witchAlso, I had another tweet featured in Nylon! And it’s about reincarnation. The first one was about my soul having an orgasm, so obviously Nylon gets me.10259354_10153259806641207_6526212192454598829_nFebruary was spent forgiving and writing and growing and just trying to make the most out of this strange and wonderful world. I’ve been really into wearing scarves in my hair, I’ve been super inspired by forgiveness and I’ve been doing my best to be compassionate. With the New Moon next week, Pisces season and eclipse season beginning, I’ll be doing my best to carry on these intentions into March.12783793_10153257992706207_3441465631442042127_o459I’ve also been super into selfies, but when am I not? 12800139_10153270217561207_4360065430487857975_n12717644_10153250719341207_4258170483599162978_n12809545_10153266160441207_478026792976039153_n21And outfit selfies too. Duh. I’ve been really into my outfits and I think that’s a wonderful sign- why the HECK would you waste your time on a bad outfit?! Life is too short. I don’t think Columbia gets my style, so I share it with the internet so my outfits don’t go to waste. Also I love modeling and an outfit that shoots well is the best!

I’ve also been writing on my typewriter (which has a twister ribbon that I need to fix. Sigh) Anyway, I decided to share a personal favorite. brokenI really dislike the idea of “finding another half” or finding someone that completes me. I am complete. I am a universe. I am whole.  The day that someone comes along who changes my world, I hope they build a castle on level ground. They will not need to fill any gaps or fill any holes- they will add to me. They will find me and bask in my light and my dark, they will be a sun to my moon.  Darkness is not evil. Darkness, to me, is the unknown- it is a feeling, a place to wander to in dreams and in art. It is the subconscious, everything that cannot be understood completely without a sense of intuition and vulnerability. THAT is what I love about this life. There is always more to experience and learn. Living at a surface level, to me, is cheating yourself out of one of the most extraordinary experiences you can have- this is not the end. This is one piece of a puzzle we will never be able to truly comprehend. And THAT is tonight’s rant.

I leave to California on Friday and I already have a few fun things planned. But all the fun comes after Alexandra and I get our wisdom teeth out. HA! Also, the job hunt has officially began!
Here’s to March!
Cheers,
Gabriela

RELEASE IT BABE:: A RITUAL FOR THE VIRGO FULL MOON

It’s the Full Moon! And the Full Moon in Virgo, with sun in Pisces at that.  This Full Moon is asking us to look at the details, to look at things logically and then step back and listen to our intuition. We’re meant to listen to both sides, to clean up and organize and to surrender from a place of truth, both mentally and spiritually. This morning, I ended up staying in bed longer than anticipated simply because my body was so tired and my dreams were so heavy. I woke up feeling a little bit groggy, but still managed to put on something that made me feel mystical.  I also performed a really beautiful Full Moon ritual which I will be sharing below- so keep reading!1532143_10153255200466207_551401841883243153_n

One of my favorite parts about the Full Moon is all the wisdom I get to soak up. I love reading what Hannah Ariel has to say about each moon over on The Numinous. Today’s favorite-

“So much of this is about simply adjusting what we do and with whom we do it. Every circumstance that has outstayed its welcome will complete itself now. Every circumstance that needs to be salvaged will begin to be fixed. You will know which is which because at this time, our intuition will express itself as simple common sense. We find what FEELS out of alignment and we have a golden opportunity to get CONSTRUCTIVE about it. Also be mindful that this Virgo Full Moon means we will feel every nook and cranny of our current reality.

We will be pulled into our bodies. Our nervous systems will speak to us clearly. We will receive acute signals that have the power to change everything. Pay attention to ALL your interactions and all your experiences this week, and listen to how they make you feel. This will be as simple as noticing what is really happening and what really needs changing – for good, for the future’s sake”

Another favorite- Mystic Mamma‘s Full Moon posts, this one specifically, by Sarah Varcas

“If we allow our minds and hearts to be absorbed in thoughts and feelings of loss, regret, disappointment, recrimination or blame then we may struggle now, sensing that life is so far beyond our control that any effort to continue on is lost in the chaos of life out of balance.

“If, however, we open our hearts to the cooling rain or warming sun, the subtle movement of the seasons who, in following their own nature remind us how to follow ours, we will find support from Mother Earth herself.”

All of this holds a lot of truth to me, especially today. I actually think I have some kind of throat virus, so I’ll be taking myself to the doctor tomorrow- listening to my body and honoring it? Check. My sister Alexandra surprised me with a typewriter last week, which I got fixed and it’s absolutely beautiful. But as I was typing after my full moon ritual, the ribbon got twisted- which means another stop back to get it fixed.12743889_10153255200441207_3686802186085872571_n

And you know what? That’s just the kind of little errand that I let stress me out. And if there’s anything I can learn from this Full Moon it’s to listen to the bigger picture. To let go of that little nagging sense in my gut that GOSH I have one more thing to do (including going to the post office!) Instead? I will choose to be humbled- I have plenty of time to get everything done.

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One of the things I will be working on this month is to meditate and write more. I love having my typewriter, which I named after my grandmother Rose. There’s such a sense of intense presence that I love about using it. Not being able to fix my mistakes means having to go back and see how I can use the imperfections to my advantage.

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Anyway, I finished a piece for Broadly two days early and I watched the last episode of this season of The X-Files, so this Full Moon wasn’t bad at all. I have shared my ritual for tonight below. Let me know what you think!

Full Moon in Virgo Ritual 

Start with a shower or bath::: My bathtub doesn’t fill all the way with hot water (and it’s a bit dirty…yuck) so I decided to take a shower. I used my lavender soap bar and my lavender salt scrub, both from Trader Joes, and really focused on cleansing myself. I had a mantra going, something along the lines of ” I let go of any patterns that no longer serve me.” Once I was done showering I gave myself a little treat of essential oil, made by my friend Jeremiah of The Bearded Bastard,  they’re venturing into women’s perfumes and oils and dear lord. They’re amazing.  As a woman, the Full Moon is especially important- it’s a cyclical time when we can connect to Goddess. Honor your own universe, honor your body and give thanks to it. This can be anyway you like BUT a bath or really long, intentional shower feel especially yummy.

Next comes a tarot reading::: I have been slacking REAL hard when it comes to doing own tarot reading, besides a daily one card pull and an occasional three card pull. I decided I would finally do my year long tarot spread- a card for each month, and one for the overarching theme of the year. I saged myself and my deck and then started. I recorded each month, what card I pulled and my basic interpretation and thoughts in my Book of Shadows. Being able to go back and see January and February was interesting and it was also relevant in my case- I pulled the Knight of Cups,  reversed, for February, and something really interesting popped into my head.
You cannot be envious on someone on the other side of the doorway if you’re not willing to cross the doorway yourself.
As I’ve mentioned before, I naturally get envious and jealous, and thankfully this has been much less of a problem for me recently (which is something I am just now realizing as I type this!) But this thought is still true- it is scary to see that door, because sometimes it’s beautiful and grand and overwhelming and sometimes we don’t feel worthy of entering whatever room is on the other side. But we have to, you have to just do it and go for it. You can’t be angry at someone else for manifesting if you’re not gonna harness your own powers to manifest. So- read your cards, or don’t! Do whatever feels right FOR YOU. You are the only you that you have- so listen to you!!

Follow this with a fire ritual::: My wonderful friend Kelsea showed me the Moon + Quartz Moon Guides, and they are amazing. I was inspired by their ritual of writing down all the patterns and habits you want to let go of this year and then burning them (a favorite past time!) I decided to do this and it was wonderful.   I wrote what I wanted to let go of ie ” I release any beliefs that I am not good enough,”  folded the paper on the crease three times and then tore it off. I then folded the strip of paper twice,  wrote the positive affirmation to what I wanted to release, ie “I am good enough”, and then folded this one last time. I did this all the way down what was left of the sheet of paper, until I felt like I covered all my bases. I took my folded strips outside with my alabaster shell and burned them. Be smart- be safe! Have some water you can use to splash on the paper if they burn too quickly. Think about what you’re letting go of as the strips burn, and focus on what you want to release for the rest of the month, as the light of the moon wanes. Release your intentions with the fire.

And finally a free write:::  I had to dump some water on my papers because they were burning too much and I live in an apartment complex. SO, I came back in, flushed the papers, washed my shell and then put my crystals in it and took it outside for the moon to cleanse. I wanted to write on my typewriter so I did! I decided to free write and just let it all out of my brain, which felt amazing. It was at the end of my writing that the ribbon of my typewriter got all twisted, which is bizarre timing, but it worked. Anyway, let go of whatever thoughts are swimming in your mind. Write yourself a love letter. Learn about what it is that makes you human. You are an amazing experience.

The energy of the Full Moon is potent for three more days- USE IT. This ritual is perfect as the light of the moon wanes and you can focus on what you want to release.

XOXO,
Gabriela

On Forgiveness

The other day I posted this on Instagram:

Tonight’s self portrait is inspired by forgiveness. I’m very much aware of my anger. Of my defensiveness. Of the way that I put up a wall when I feel threatened or hurt or attacked. I am very much aware of my imperfections like the fact that even after I let people go I still think about them and hold onto their words. Today I forgive- myself and those who hurt me. Today I am inspired by @louniverse message to forgive others not necessarily because they deserve it, but because you do. Today I forgive my inner scorpion. I forgive the little girl inside me who just wants to impress people and make everyone happy and have everyone love each other. Today I forgive the part of me that is angry and lashes out. Today I forgive myself for hurting others simply because I was hurting. Today I forgave someone who hurt me and today I forgave myself for ever hurting them back. Anyway- I am about to go shower with some lavender salt scrub and then eat cookie butter ice cream and watch a movie. 

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And today I wanted to expand a bit on this beautiful, sacred, idea of forgiveness. And honestly, I’m not even sure what will come of this post, but i feel like I need to write- and I’ve learned to not ignore that itch when it comes up. So, here we go. Oh forgiveness. It seems easy but it’s hard. It’s really, really hard. In my case I forgave someone who I made myself vulnerable with- someone who saw a lot more of me than anyone else and in the end wasn’t truly worthy of that. I was hurt. I was hurt and left with no closure except that which I created for myself. And I think that’s the first step to forgiveness- allowing yourself to create the closure that YOU need. So YOU can move on. Because it’s easier to go back and appreciate a gash when it’ already turned into a scar- you do not have to live with raw pain.You are allowed to feel and heal.

 A lot of my relationships (I use this word very loosely) have ended with me having to create my closure. And forgiveness is damn hard when you don’t feel like you have any answers. But sometimes you just have to forgive, not for the other person, but for yourself, so you can let go of the rope you’re holding onto and just move forward. In my case, I was contacted by someone I had done my best to forget in the past six months and I was left with a flurry of feelings- including the fact that I felt nothing, but I still felt raw? Open? Vulnerable. Because I had never forgiven- him or myself- and that wound had never truly healed. After my inner Scorpio moon came out and I was on the offense- I felt tired, overwhelmed and over it. I had been hanging onto this hurt, this borderline hate, which honestly was necessary at the time so I could move on, but I realized- I needed to forgive him and myself. I am not completely innocent either, my hurt doesn’t excuse my action of hurting someone else. So that night, I showered, worked with my tarot and wrote. And now, I am taking baby steps to heal, fully and intentionally. But another thing came up the next night-

I did a tarot reading last night for myself and a mantra popped into my head. “I don’t need to know the answers right now”. I like knowing. I like knowing about people and the universe and myself. I’ve been going through a past life crisis (HA! A story for another time) that just brought back a lot of feelings and questions about myself and past relationships. And there were many things I wanted to know since closure didn’t give me many answers. And there’s a point in the mad quest for the truth, or for what feels like it, when you just have to stop and surrender. And that’s what I am choosing to do. I am choosing to face the wild unknown. I am choosing to not worry about the answers. My wonderful friend @kelseawoods sent me this quote by Rilke today:: “Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” You don’t need to know all the answers right now. Right now you just have to be. A photo posted by Gabriela Lorraine (@gabyherstik) on

This mantra popped into my head.
I do not need to know the answers right now.
And what a relief that is. I’ve been going through what feels like a past life crisis, I’m sure this human and I knew each other back in the Medieval period I swear to god. And I’d been having these feelings, these memories and this inclination that I was right. I wrote a piece on Medieval churches and witch marks, and then all this stuff started to overlap- how I’ve been working with witchcraft and faeries for 10 years, and then suddenly this person was back. After I had consciously made a decision not to contact him and asked the universe that if he was meant to contact me he would- and he did. And after forgiving him, after forgiving myself, I realized I do not need to know the answers. I don’t need to know if we were actually together in a past incarnation, I don’t need to know how he feels or how he felt.  All I need to know  is where I am in this moment.

And realizing that, realizing that I DON’T have to have everything figured out, feels like the biggest act of surrender I can have. We are not responsible for having everything lined up or figured out or understood. We are responsible for living in our highest purpose, for living in a place of peace and love and for working towards this as much as we can.

 

So today, I urge you all to live in a place of surrender, a place of forgiveness and a place of unknowing. Today I urge you to bask in the wild unknown.

XOXO,
Gabriela

THE 22 THINGS I’VE LEARNED AT 22

Today is a magical day and I don’t care what anyone else says! On this day 22 years ago, my twin sister and I were born. Now, that in itself isn’t that magical. BUT- we were both seven weeks premature, yet the two of us were born on 2/2/94- all the twos! Now to add to that, Alexandra and I turn 22 today! Our life number is 9, and guess what-2016 is a 9  universal year! Hence, today I celebrate every form of magick that comes my way by sharing some “”knowledge”” I have learned.BDAY

21 was the best year of my life. I believe in each year being better than the last, if only because you learned something from it.  21 brought a whole lot of changes- a year ago I was living in London studying at London College of Fashion- something that sank in only very recently. 21 brought letting go of people but it brought even more people into my life who I am overwhelmingly thankful for. 21 brought travel (to Greece, Italy and France nonetheless), it brought me to New York City,  where I felt at home for the first time- a feat in itself since in the five cities I’ve lived in (not counting London) I have never felt like I am home. 21 brought going to London Fashion Week as international press for Deux Hommes, an internship with Rick Owens, two internships with The Numinous, plenty of fun blog posts and collaborations, and a position as a contributor to Broadly. 21 was also the year I fell in love- with myself. Oh and 21 brought me here- to my last semester in college. What the HECK. I started this blog six and a half years ago so I could start practicing fashion writing in a more professional capacity. Now I am actually doing these things?! You guys I don’t understand what the universe has given me but I am screaming thank you into the abyss. And I am screaming an even bigger THANK YOU to the universe for giving me my twin sister.

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ANYWAY- Here are 22 things I have learned up until this point in my life. ENJOY!

1. DON’T GIVE A F*** ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK
Seriously- this is important. I’m not talking about giving up on people, or ignoring your friends opinions that have to do with your general well-being. I’m talking about caring about what the random people around you think about you- about your opinions or values or clothes, whatever. This is not an excuse to be racist, misogynistic…etc!! But if you are working in YOUR highest favor, serving YOUR highest purpose, wearing something that YOU love, listening to music YOU like- other peoples opinions don’t matter. One of the only laws in Wicca is this- An ye harm none, do what ye will. If it doesn’t harm anyone- go for it.

2. ALWAYS TELL YOUR LOVED ONES YOU LOVE THEM
Seriously. Never go to sleep mad, and tell the people you love that you care about them.

3. IF YOU LIKE SOMETHING ABOUT SOMEONE TELL THEM
But god, please don’t be creepy about it.  THIS DOES NOT MEAN CAT CALLING. THIS MEANS APPROPRIATELY  TELLING THE GUY NEXT TO YOU IN LINE THAT HIS WATCH IS NICE or that the woman next to you has a really cool purse. Use discretion! I compliment A LOT but it’s because if I like something about someone, I want them to know it! Spreading a little cheer is never bad!

4. SURROUND YOURSELF WITH THE RIGHT PEOPLE
One of the problems I had in high school was way too much drama. It wasn’t until I really found my tribe in college that I was able to feel like I had a community. I’ve always kept a small group of best friends, as opposed to a large group of acquaintances, and having humans around me that GET ME has been life changing. Whether we are eating ice cream, talking about crystals, watching a drag shows or drinking coffee, I surround myself with  people who vibe at my frequency. Having best friends who are always there for me, to remind me that I am loved and that I am important  is a non-negotiable.  Having friends who I love to the end of the world and who I want to be there for is a gift. So thank you universe!FRIENDS

5. ALWAYS LAUGH AT YOURSELF
Seriously. I refuse to admit that I am “clumsy” but I do trip a lot, and your girls knocks a lot of stuff over. If I spill on someone or hurt something or someone really bad, I always say/ feel very sorry. BUT if I am just tripping while I walk to class, I will easily be the first to laugh at myself. Life is way, way to short to always take yourself seriously. Laughing is the best medicine, and if you give yourself permission to make mistakes-and if you don’t get angry when they happen (you are human after all), then life gets a little easier.

6. WORK FOR PEOPLE WHO TRULY APPRECIATE YOU
Working and interning remotely has the potential to either be incredible or very difficult, depending on the level of communication needed between you and your boss. I have had the most incredible experiences working under some amazing editors like Amy at Deux Hommes and Ruby at The Numinous. The one time I was in a position as a contributor and I was unhappy, I quit- thankfully, there weren’t really any strings, or money, attached so it was easy. But that experience has shown me how incredible it can be to work under people who DO appreciate me. Honestly, being passionate and loving your job is also super helpful and important and it’s a privilege that I hope everyone has. Working for a company that treasures your worth is crucial- don’t settle for someone who doesn’t see you as human. You are worth more.NUMI

7. HUGGING TREES IS THE BEST
If you’ve never hugged a tree you are missing it. It is magical. Trees carry so much wisdom in them. I love faery folklore and Dryads are one of my favorites (they are nymphs that inhabit forests and trees!)

8. BE THE PERSON DANCING THE HARDEST AT THE SHOW
I didn’t go to parties in high school. Instead, my best friend and I would go to local shows almost every weekend.  I am not musical at all, but if I hear a good beat, god save me. If someone was trying to torture me they would just tie me down and play some good music so I was physically restrained from moving my body. Whenever we went to shows, I would be the girl dancing like a loon. I’m still the same- I dance my butt off and I’ve had people take photos and Iaugh but guess what- IT DOESN’T MATTER. Dancing for me is physical embodiment of bliss. I will never apologize for that.

9.READ GOOD BOOKS
I am so overwhelmingly thankful that my parents passed on their loves of books to both my sister and me. My mom and dad were always reading us books and telling us stories growing up- my mom even tried to read Alex and I Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone when we were 5 (which was too confusing at the time, but we read it by ourselves two years later). This lifelong fascination with books is what led me to witchcraft, to fashion journalism and to AP Lit and AP Lang- and John Steinbeck, my favorite author and probably my twin flame. I prefer a physical copy of a book- I love the smell of old books, being able to take them with me and write in them and throw them across the room if I get angry at them. Portable readers aren’t the same thing to me.

10. BUY YOURSELF PRETTY LINGERIE Starting a collection of vintage lingerie has boosted my self-love to another level. Nothing makes me feel like a princess more than lounging in bed in my satin onesie watching The Twilight Zone. Investing in one piece of lingerie to wear when you’re sad and need to be reminded that you are a QUEEN is honestly so worth it. I will ALWAYS recommend my babe Ivory for vintage lingerie. I have 20+ pieces and almost all of them are from her.22 11. PET ALL THE DOGS Hello this is a PSA that you should pet dogs when you see them (AFTER YOU ASK THE OWNER AND THEY SAY IT’S OKAY!!) One of my favorite parts about my home away from home here in Columbia, Drip Coffee, is that they allow dogs into their establishment! This means I get to live vicariously through every pup I see, since my own pooch is on the West Coast. Animals in general are so healing and wonderful and just LOVE THEM!

13. HAVING A TWIN IS THE BEST
I just wanted to publicly acknowledge how thankful I am for my sister Alexandra. She lives with me, deals with me every single day and still loves me. She is one of the most intelligent, compassionate and talented humans I have ever known. She is beautiful inside and out, and she deserves every good thing the world has to offer her. We haven’t always been this close, but I am so glad that I have her and such amazing parents in this life. If you have siblings and are lucky enough to see them, tell them you love them. 

12.IT’S OKAY TO NOT KNOW WHERE YOU’RE GOING
Honestly the fact that I know what I want to do as a job is weird. It is not the norm, as much as your parents are trying to tell you otherwise. Here’s the thing- it is okay to not know where this life is taking you. It is okay to not know where your passions lie. If you’re not sure where you’re going, don’t be complacent- use this as an invitation to explore and travel and make memories and chase whatever it is that may be calling you. Take a gap year after college to travel around Europe or go on a road trip. Start a blog, find a new hobby, walk around. It’s okay to not have it all figured out- no one does. Some people can just hide it better than others.

14. FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOURSELF IS A JOURNEY There’s a whole lot of talk about self-love which is so important and worthy and necessary. BUT- here’s the thing that I think needs to be reiterated. IT IS A PROCCESS. AND IT AIN’T EASY. You know yourself better than anyone else and this means being hyperaware of every “fault” that you have. You’re probably (definitely) going to tear yourself up about something you said or did on multiple occasions and you’l probably criticize your apperance. But starting a journey to self love is taking baby steps- having these moments, criticizing yourself and then moving past it. Criticizing yourself less and less, comparing yourself to others less and less and appreciating yourself a little more each day. It means taking steps to forgive yourself because the faults you think you have aren’t faults at all- they are what make you human. Falling in love with yourself is a journey- one that is necessary because YOU deserve your unyielding admiration, love and respect more than ANYONE ELSE. Write it in big letters and stick it on your wall. Remind yourself of this everyday. I was talking to my soul sister Kelsea about all the goals I had set when I was 21. I was telling her how I accomplished all of them (WEIRD) except I didn’t fall in love. She immediately asked if I had fallen in love with MYSELF because that counts. Hell yes.

15. WEAR SHOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU CAN KILL A MAN
Your girl loves her heels, shamelessly, and let me tell you- wearing shoes that make you feel powerful is the bees knees. Think about it- for most of us, our feet are our direct connection to this earth- to how we LITERALLY walk through this life. I’m gonna wear something that makes me feel powerful, beautiful and NOT to be messed with, amen.

 

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16. THERE ARE VERY FEW THINGS RED LIPSTICK CAN’T FIX
I bought my first tube of red lipstick when I was 15 or 16, British Red from Revlon or something along those lines. It took me a couple of years to grow into it, but when I was 17 my mom gave me her empty MAC containers and told me to pick out an orangey-red lipstick. So Chaud became my go to lipstick which I wore basically everyday. I transitioned to Lady Danger when I got to college (a little brighter of a shade), and now I tend to wear different colors every day. BUT- red lipstick still trumps all. It is the best, like an ego booster in a tube. I think everyone should have a tube of a red lipstick that suites them.

 

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17. BLACK IS THE NEW BLACK
I dare you to wear a good outfit in head-to-toe black and tell me you don’t feel powerful and sexy. I stand by my black on black obsession. I also stand by the fact that there is nothing that will ever be the new black. Black is the only black.black

18. GIVE YOURSELF PERMISSION TO FAIL BUT NEVER STOP TRYING
I have failed plenty of times in this life. But here’s the thing, you have to suck it up, laugh about it and keep moving forward. Your worth is inherent- it is not based on how well you do, or don’t do, something. Giving yourself permission to fail is important- but get up and keep moving.  The universe is always working in your highest favor, but sometimes it speaks in a language you haven’t learned yet. One door closing means another is about to open- but you have to move out of one doorway into the next to be able to turn the knob. 

19. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST
I was super uncomfortable with myself for most of my life. It wasn’t until I turned 20 that I started to really grow into myself, and love myself and truly appreciate myself.  I was always super lanky, and I’ve always looked way younger than I am and I never felt like I was who I wanted to be. Throughout all of this though, I knew that for other people to love me, and for me to love other people, I had to love myself. Even though I felt awkward and weird, I was still learning to love myself. My mom was always big on that golden rule- love yourself first- and it’s been one of the most important things I have ever learned. 38

20. CELEBRATE
Life is too short to not celebrate. It’s the weeekend? CELEBRATE! It’s your birthday? CELEBRATE! You got an A on an exam? CELEBRATE!! You found the pair of Prada pumps that you’ve been searching for since SS14? CELEBRATE. You’re ALIVE- life itself is a giant excuse to party. Enjoy it.

21.GOOD SAFETY PINS ARE LIFE CHANGING
Ivory turned me on to sewing quality safety pins so I could make things fit a little better and let me just say, it has been life changing. My quality of life has improved drastically now that I have a thing of safety  pins at my disposal. Now none of my skirts or shorts gap, I can turn shirts and sweaters into cropped shirts and sweaters, and my wardrobe just feels a little bit more punk. Perfect.

22. HAVE FUN
HAVE SOME DAMN FUN. YOU SHOULD HAVE AT LEAST FIVE MINUTES EVERYDAY AND THAT IS AN ORDER. AMEN.

 

CHEERS TO 22 YEARS,
Gabriela

MONDAY MAGICK WITH THE NUMINOUS

Happy Monday one and all. I hope all my friends celebrating MLK Day are taking it easy, sending out grateful vibes for the amazing man and knowing that it’s up to us to keep his mission and legacy goin’. Today I worked a little, chilled a little and took some photos- of my CUSTOMIZED BIRTH CHART TEE SHIRT!! I came home from vacation to the most beautiful shirt from my #GirlBoss Ruby. The Numinous and YR Store collaborated for these sick tees and I am so excited to wear mine all the time and never take it off.2I’m an Aquarius, born in year of the dog and my birth number is 9. This shirt features all that and more- an amethyst for my birthstone, Uranus because it’s my ruling planet and cool blue because it’s my color. Erin Petson designed the shirt and I wish I had words besides “so obsessed” to describe my feelings, but I don’t! It’s super soft, it has all my favorite things, it’s from my favorite job/magazine and it’s personalized to me! 1Aquarius is the “rebel” and “humanitarian” of the zodiac, a trend setter committed to paving  the way for a better world, one weird outfit and idea at a time. Naturally, I wanted to accentuate this along with my love of the cosmos and also wanted add a little bit of party flair. I worked in my DIY painted heels, my trusty star tights from Target, my Deandri choker and my furry jacket from Distrubia (which I like to call my “fashion gorilla” coat). I added in some dark berry lipstick and a bit of sass as a final touch. Alexandra always takes photos that make me feel fabulous and I am so thankful for sharing a birthday with her. 548 967All photos by my twin Alexandra 3 Here’s to a wonderful year.
XXX,
Gabriela

BF DOES HALLOWEEN 2015

As some of your may or may not know, I work at Hip Wa Zee– aka the coolest costume meets vintage shop located in good ole Columbia, South Caroina. We take Halloween very seriously, duh, and all the employees dress up the last two weeks of October (except all of us are so excited that we start earlier). I’ve been chronicling my costumes on Instagram and Facebook, but decided this was the perfect place to debut all of them.

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12 11 10The whole premise was to look like my whole life is a dark room, one big dark room. Thankfully, for most of my costumes, I was able to use clothing I already had. Case in point- this entire look. The shirt and skirt are both from H&M, the bra top is Topshop and my hat is vintage. My new Polaroid camera came in handy (even though it was white) and I just put white makeup along my cheekbones and purple under my eyes to achieve the whole “dead on the inside” thing.

Gaby Had a Little Lamb

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Who’s afraid of the big bad wolf? I am, because I’m a lamb (duh). This turned out to be one of my favorite costumes because I spent the entire day feeling adorable. I wore a leotard from Nasty Gal with some bloomer shorts I got from our store. I paired it with gloves (also from our store) that I covered in cotton balls,  ears I made from felt and cotton balls and a white wig (also from the store). I topped it off with white socks and oxfords from Target and a fresh face of lamb makeup.

Frank N. Furter

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“I see you shiver with antici…

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So I realized I pretty much dress like this most of the time anyway, except you know, with more clothing. This leather bra and waist cincher from Ivory of Forgotten Feather, shorts are from Hip Wa Zee, thigh highs are from Urban and shoes are from Target. I contoured the cr** out of my face, put on my favorite deep red lippie and called it a day. Oh- but don’t forget the pearls.

Grown Up Wednesday Addams

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I’m a homicidal maniac, they  look just like everyone else.  I was Wednesday all grown up, because you know she totally would have had half her hair shaved off and she would’ve been into witchcraft and tarot. Ivory found me this vintage set over summer, literally the day before I told her I wanted to be Wednesday Addams one day for Halloween (spooky coincidence, no?!).  I paired this with my oxfords and a glowstick axe I painted.

Edgar Allan HOE

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Because I wanted to dress like Edgar, mustache and all, but I wanted to do my own take on it and make it sexy… then Edgar Allan Hoe was born. I’m still proud of it. I wore fishnets, an old button down from American Threads, my favorite hot pants, a vintage scarf from Ivory and sock garters from Hip Wa Zee. I paired it with my mustache and a wrap around braid. I won a costume contest for this and I’m still excited about it.

White Trash

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Get it ? I only worked for a few hours between classes and I wanted to see if I could pull this off. The fake cigarette behind my ear was just the icing on the Mountain Dew.

And my Halloween Costume…

Yzma

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“PULL THE LEVER KRONK”

SO this was pretty much the greatest costume I ever put together pretty much solely because I LOVE YZMA.  Alex and I grew up watching The Emperors New Groove and I always admired Yzma’s charisma and outfits. I got the brilliant idea of dressing up as my favorite lady on Halloween night and I knew I had to follow through. I paired a vintage slip from Ivory with a purple feather (that perfectly matched my sidecut!) and I glued purple fabric on a black collar. Topped it off with Yzma makeup and a thigh garter and I was Gucci.

What were YOU this Halloween?
XXX
Gabriela Herstik

A Magical, Mystical, Monday Moment with Gala Darling

I’m a firm believer that people come to you when they’re meant to. As we utilize everything this new age has to offer, we are finding connection to people we were always meant to connect with- just in a modern way. I’ve talked about how full circle working for The Numinous is for me. I’ve found a whole web of powerful, mystical, witchy mama’s because of the site. Gala Darling is no exception.11102962356_e4a743e3c1_z

I can’t remember the first time I found Gala through the Numinous, but I remember always being start struck at her presence. Here she was- a living manifestation of everything I believe in- a powerful, fashionable, witchy woman who preaches self-love to the nth degree and LIVES IT. With her slick black hair, perfect cat eye, bright clothing and lipstick and damn powerful aura, this woman is using the internet and social media to make a positive difference in women’s lives around the world.

Gala is the wonderful sort of woman who inspires truth in whoever has the pleasure of following any of her channels online. Through her blog, Instagram and Twitter, Gala has tapped into what it means to be a modern day wise women, and she’s sharing her Radical Self Love Revolution with the masses (something I hold dearly in my heart). Everything Gala believes in resonates with me 100%- she is an incredible soul who I cannot wait to meet and get lost in conversation with. I am so thankful wonderful women like her exist- here’s to finding your tribe. 7241399916_1e35a1a163_z

I had the immense pleasure of interviewing my witchy sister from another mister for Breathing Fashion. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did. XO.

Breathing Fashion: You created the Radical Self-Love movement by literally going through it and then sending out your message to women across the globe. Was there a single moment when you were like “fuck feeling anything less than love”? Was your experience finding Radical Self-Love an epiphany or more of an awakening?

Gala Darling: It was a slow awakening. I was killing myself with my eating disorder, crying when I looked in the mirror, never went outside with bare legs, was existing on coffee alone. But when I discovered tapping (also known as EFT), it completely changed my perception of everything. It was like being reborn. Once I was able to drop my eating disorder and abandon the depression that had followed me around since I was 13 years old, the world looked totally new. I couldn’t believe it. I was so overwhelmed by the beauty of life and I think I’ve been making up for lost time ever since!

That’s not to say that everything is wonderful all the time, because of course, it’s not. But that shift in how I perceived the world has made it so much easier to look on the bright side, and see the blessing in most things.21608759269_7fe0f0bfcc_z

BF: Is there a secret to a radical level of loving yourself? What’s the one thing you feel like women everywhere need to know?

GD: The most important thing to know is that you have choices, and you can do absolutely anything you want. If you never want to get married or have a baby and you’d prefer to spend your time travelling or having sexy rendez-vous or making money, that’s great! Go do that! And there’s no real secret to loving yourself: it’s an everyday practice. Choose again, choose to be compassionate with yourself, choose to be brave, choose to be your best self.21783905922_4095d88d3c_k

BF: How does your practice with witchcraft influence your journey with self- love, if at all? How did you find spirituality/the occult, and has this been a crucial part of your journey?

GD: Since diving back into the world of witchcraft, I’ve discovered so many more tools I can use to infuse and inform my radical self love journey. It’s a beautiful marriage. As a kid, I was always reading about the supernatural, and when I was 13 years old I saw The Craft — ha! — and shortly thereafter, bought my first book on witchcraft. I practiced for a couple of years before depression really started to crush me and being goth and miserable became more important. I rediscovered magic a few years ago and it has been totally transformative.14924836467_9ce9c09de3_o

BF: What’s your definition of a “witch”? Is this something that has changed over time?

GD: A witch is someone who knows what they want and goes after it. A witch is someone who works with the universe rather than against it. A witch is someone who recognises that magic can be as simple as a shift in perception.

BF: What’s your “soul style”? What do you wear that makes you feel beautiful and cosmic- like you’re painting a physical representation of your soul?

GD: My style is so eclectic and changing all the time: Sunday best on acid, witchy eleganza… I love colourful dresses and psychedelic accessories, skulls and hearts, neon with black, high heels and big boots. My favourite outfit right now is a pinafore-style skater dress worn with dark lipstick, a push-up bra, high-heeled Dr Marten boots, a black beanie and my leather jacket.12736298363_2d69902e6b_o

BF: What’s your zodiac sign??

GD: My Sun and Mercury are Virgo, my Moon and Rising are Sagittarius, and my Venus and Mars are in Leo. Really, that sums me up perfectly!

BF: You have a jewelry collection coming up (so freaking cool, I can’t wait to buy every piece!) Any teasers on what we should expect?

GD: This is my second collection with New Zealand Mint, and this release contains lots of little magical symbols to bring more of what you want into your life… And I’m happy to report that they work! (I’ve been testing them out…)6963537209_891a0edbf9_o

BF: What do you do when you’re sad and need a pick me up?

GD: One-person dance parties in my living room ALWAYS make me feel good (which goes hand-in-hand with constantly seeking out new music). Working out shifts my mood every single time. And if I can’t be bothered working out, going for a walk around my neighbourhood with my camera is a great soul-salve.

BF:   What’s your favorite music to dance to?

GD: Hip-hop, all day, every day. I’m always making new playlists. My Fall/Winter one is here: https://open.spotify.com/user/galadarling/playlist/20cwTggkq0teNTVyILPwmO12816421864_0bf6f480f9_o

BF: What’s the one secret of the universe you NEED to know?!

GD: The most important thing is to feel good, because how you feel is a preview of your coming attractions. If you don’t feel good, do something to make yourself feel good.21174587833_defc45d118_z

So many thanks to this beautiful woman for letting me pick her brain. You can find Gala on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook, and don’t forget to check out her blog. 

 XOXO,
Gabriela

 

On Carefully Curated Simplicity

We all have our flaws. I’m obviously no exception, and I try to be transparent with that especially on here and social media. It’s so easy to pretend to be something to project a certain image into the world, just to feel accepted. I don’t like to be perceived differently on here than I do in real life- I want this blog to be like an open conversation (to whoever decides to read it) about my relationship with fashion and life. Today’s post is no different. One of the biggest problems I’ve had with enlightenment, so to speak, is envy. Being a twin, I grew up being compared to my sister a lot and I was never fully comfortable with who I was for a long time.  Pair this with middle school, and a really long awkward phase, and there was a lot of self-criticism and envy of others for me until about two years ago. It has been only recently that I’ve started to drink Boy Tears. 1Even though I’m a lot more comfortable with who I am, and even though other peoples opinions don’t matter to me, I still find myself getting in the mindset of envy. This place is where comparison resides, something that for me exists in a really strange way.

I’m an Aquarius. I am naturally curious- I want to know about the inner workings of peoples brains and hearts, I want to know why the universe acts the way it does, and why things always happen in threes. I am also curated- I make my way through life with intention- both with my style and the way I present myself to the world, and the way that I move through it. I am constructed and I am careful- simply because I know what I like and it makes me feel good and I follow it. I’m constantly curating who I am because I’m constantly finding pieces of myself that fit. 43 2 I am not simple- I think. I think a lot, something which gets exhausting but something which shapes the world around me more than anything else. I am not effortless- I am effortlessly myself because I’m shaping who I am but I am constantly analyzing. This even comes down with the way I decorate my room and my car and the little things in between. I strive to be surrounded and cloaked in things that resonate with me on a soul level. I choose- people, places and things that make me feel alive and I go there and only there. 6 5But this gets tiring. And I find myself envious of girls who move through life in a more effortless state. This envy tends to be one from afar, judging peoples lives from the outside looking in. I find myself envious of  simplicity, of girls who are just cute and adorable with what seems like minimal effort. Regardless if this is true or not, one thing remains the same- this is my story, not theirs. I may put effort into who I am and surprise- that’s not something someone should be ashamed of! I think this sort of jealousy is a reminder that how other people live their lives is irrelevant to how I live my own-.

I am proud of who I am, of my own story. This is a reminder that sometimes it takes letting go and finding an inner sense of simplicity to really live and let live. That envy isn’t worth it and working on the way you view the world and shape your life is.  This post is more of a reminder of myself, and to whoever else needs it, that life is only as hard as you make it.

Make it wonderful.
XXX
Gabriela

THE HERMIT

hermit-1Unlike any other card in my tarot series, The Hermit found its way to me. I had scheduled to shoot with Mary but I had no idea what card to pick. And for the first time, I was okay with that- I didn’t want to know. So what did I do? I went inside, played some Chelsea Wolfe (aka my current obsession), took out my deck, and meditated on what exactly it is that I needed at that moment- what was the universe trying to teach me? I didn’t even divide the major or minor arcana, I wanted to pick a card that I was meant to work with, and it turns out I did. The Hermit urges us to go inward- it’s a wake up call to remember that we have all the answers we need within us, it’s just a matter of listening. Just like the turtle has it’s shell and it can retreat inward, finding it’s home wherever it is, so can we. hermit-8This semester, this past summer, and this past year have been a whirlwind and they have taught me more about myself than any semester or summer or year prior. For the first time I don’t feel the need to prove myself to anyone,  I don’t feel the need to make sure any certain person likes me. For the first time the only person I am focused on loving is myself, and when I pulled the Hermit it was like a love spell straight to my heart. I’d been wanting to turn inward, get back to my yoga practice and focus on what gives me inner purpose and all of the sudden, I was pulling this card to remind me that YES- that’s what I should do, that’s what I needed, and that’s what I did. hermit-11What does The Hermit teach us? The Hermit speaks of vulnerability, of shedding your layers and moving inward, of finding the answers in your own connection to the universe, to the world around you, and to yourself. In The Wild Unknown deck, it says the Hermit’s one of the most valued and celebrated creatures because through going inward, The Hermit’s able to find knowledge and wisdom it can share. The Hermit is a cosmic kick in the butt to just stop, to listen, meditate and ponder- the most important things in this life are the moments we often rush over, the pearls of beauty we find in ananda- the bliss of being.

hermit-13The idea of the turtle really resonated with me when I was trying to figure out how to represent this card. The simplicity of wearing your home on your back is both obvious and profound, and the idea of finding home in my own bones is something I’ve been trying to work with. I decided to wear my spiked leather jacket for this post because it’s a barrier between me and the world- it gives me the confidence and strength to own my sh**. Pieces like my leather jacket are my shell- they’re my protection as I move through this life, especially as someone who can be passed over as vulnerable or weak because of my small frame. I wore a vintage nightgown that I got from Ivory for this same reason- there’s a sense of vulnerability that comes with wearing your home on your back. I wanted to represent going inward by wearing something really delicate. Embracing The Hermit means dealing with your own issues face on- finding them, learning from them and hopefully growing from them. It also means picking up your shell, knowing you’re your own home, and continuing along your own path as you explore what it means to tune into yourself.  hermit-35hermit-37hermit-18hermit-23hermit-24hermit-32hermit-53hermit-52hermit-63hermit-56hermit-77hermit-73hermit-72hermit-78hermit-79hermit-80hermit-86hermit-83hermit-87Of course, I had to reinterpret the classic version of this card, (green!) cape and all. So thankful for Mary who always takes amazing photos and helps my vision come to life.

Here’s to going inward.
XXX,
Gabriela

THE SELF-LOVE REVOLUTION

Earlier today I came across an article- but not any article. THIS article. One which says the “Strat’ uniform is revolutionary. For those of you who don’t live in an SEC college town with an ungodly amount of Greek life, that’s the code for sorority uniform- oversized shirt and Nike shorts. The revolution, I suppose, comes from the idea that dressing for comfort, and purely comfort, is revolutionary. The writer didn’t actually talk about this, they just put it in the title and never brought it up. So, I don’t know what’s revolutionary about wearing tee shirts and shorts. If you think dressing like everyone else, simply because it’s the easiest choice and it’s practical, is revolutionary. you’re wrong. Saying that this uniform is revolutionary is taking away from women and men like Coco Chanel, Christian Dior, Vivienne Westwood and Rei Kawakubo. You’re taking away from the importance of what we wear to express who we are, especially in terms of gender and social constructs. I’m not here to lecture you, I’m just saying you’re wrong. Fashion can be revolutionary, just not in the way you think. There’s an interesting feeling that comes with purposefully crafting the way you move through this life. If you’re able to shape the way you enter the world, if you’re ever given that opportunity and don’t take advantage- you’re missing something good. There’s a power that’s found in that sort of self- love, one that I would argue is revolutionary.You don’t need anyone else’s approval. The only person who has to be comfortable with who you are, with what you chose, with the way you live, is you. If we all loved ourselves without fail, and empowered one another to do the same- that would be revolutionary.

Carrying this self-love in the form of fashion is my personal revolution.

1My revolution comes in the form of soul style. Which, for me, is finding an aesthetic representation for my soul.This means all  black, bright lipstick, a half shaved scalp, beautiful lingerie and strong eyebrows. When I wear all black, I feel like there’s a silhouette and less detail- like I can be who I am without people being distracted or worried about the little things. They’re too busy taking in the bigger picture (and unintentionally feeling my vibes and aura). I feel an energetic alignment when I wear something that makes me feel connected to the night and to the universe, especially when it’s in the form of a kick-ass outfit. It is my opinion, that self-love is a radical revolution; ignoring it, is not.

Today my revolution came in the form of brunch, taking these photos with Alex, cleaning, and movie and craft night with Ivory. I wore a pink harness bra from Urban Outfitters, my Betsey Johnson earrings and a new Wet and Wild lipstick that is my current obsession (and only $2). My shirt was handed down from one of my favorite friends, and the shorts are from my work, Hip Wa Zee. Lot’s of love went into this outfit.

2 3 4 5 6 7810 11Team effort with the twin, in her own soul style. Alex is the best and her photography skills make me feel pretty, so thank you twin.

Here’s to a new revolution.

Here’s the Sundays with a little bit of soul (ha)
XXX,
Gabriela

A Numinous Synchroinicty

I’ve been thinking about synchronicity a lot. I’ve noticed it more and more, in funnier and simpler ways. I’ll be thinking about someone randomly and they’ll text, I’ll say something that my friend was about to say, someone who I haven’t thought of will come up after being thought of, weird coincidences are becoming more and more frequent. The more I take hold and notice, the more it happens. Those are little kinds of synchronicity. They’ve been pairing with bigger full circles, in more ways than one, but one of the biggest and most relevant ways synchronicity has shaped my life is through a website called The Numinous. DQ 1Let’s start at the beginning, as much as I can without boring you to death. My path with spirituality began when I was 11. My moms friend owned a metaphysical bookstore with her girlfriend, and they gave me my first set of oracle cards. This started my journey and my obsession, which led to my discovery of witchcraft. I had visited Salem on Halloween when I was 7, so this connection was a cool circle; I had been so intrigued by Wicca, it felt right when it came back around. I became interested in fashion and journalism at 14, when I decided I wanted to pursue fashion journalism. Before this I had wanted to own my own metaphysical store.witch

Fast forward to my sophomore year of college. Up until this point I had been trying to find a way to incorporate my love for fashion and spirituality and magick into a singular medium. I had already started my tarot series (outfits based on different cards of the deck, which are here), and was posting more on spirituality, but it wasn’t adding up. One of my favorite humans, Kelsea, and I were having coffee when she told me about this website called The Numinous. I saw the tagline, “Material girl, mystical world” and knew I was hooked; could it really be everything I had wanted?! (The answer is a resounding YES).  I was obsessed- it only helped that editor Ruby went to London College of Fashion, worked as a fashion journalist and left to pursue a website “where Celine shoes and the Celestine Prophecy could exist in beautiful harmony.”  I kid you not, I felt like someone finally understood my soul. I had finally found a place to turn to, at least online. After obsessing over the site for 6 or so months, I decided to pitch a piece to Ruby- my first pitch ever, but I figured it couldn’t hurt, right?! She responded, said she loved the idea, and my piece on being a Death Queen and owning the Death Card came up. This was a completely surreal experience in itself; a personal piece up on my favorite blog!? Pretty freaking cool. DQ 2This was the first time I realized there was an avenue for what I wanted to do- and I decided to follow it. I kept in touch with Ruby and continued being a fan girl.I asked her about London, since I would be studying at London College of Fashion for a semester, and pitched a few more ideas to her. Fast forward to this past summer while I was in New York interviewing for a couple other potential internships and finally got to meet the lovely Ruby face-to-face (at the cutest cafe/yoga studio ever). We talked and chatted and it was when I came back to the city for my internship with Rick Owens a couple of weeks later that I officially accepted the position as an editorial intern, which I had been offered the previous semester. WHAT. What makes this even more mystical is that for my fashion theory class at LCF I wrote about fashion and spirituality- using The Numinous, and Ruby,as a case study and example. Another circle, right? numinatiI became a member of the Numinati, got my own contributors page, and was in charge of helping Ruby revamp content. I wrote everything from quizes to “listicles” to features on designers and interviews. It. was. magical. The internship was even for school credit; two birds with one stone. I also had the opportunity to write about dressing ~summer goth~ and featured one of my favorite brands in the process, Sisters of the Black Moon.  Fashion influenced by spirituality and witchcraft, and being able to write about it?! I never anticipated this becoming a reality, but I thank the cosmos for it everyday.  summer gothOh and I got to interview Audrey Kitching, which was also beyond amazing. She is the real deal, let me just say. audI’ve been incredibly lucky with the editors I work under; they’ve all been amazing, and Ruby was no exception. Working with her was an incredible experience; she was always willing to answer my million questions, give me feedback, encourage me and trust me with the responsibility of writing content for the site. Needless to say, by the time this internship was coming to end, I didn’t want it to. Thankfully it didn’t- I got a promotion of sorts and will be working social media for the site!! I freaked out when Ruby said she wanted to continue working with me and I freaked out even more when she offered me this position. The past ten years have come full circle and for the first time I’m able to combine both of my passions in a meaningful way. Life is so good and I’m so thankful for every opportunity that has led me to where I am right now. yaWith that being said- if you don’t follow The Numinous  on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram (which is run by #girlboss Ruby herself) I can’t with you and you’re actually the worst.

What are your most noteworthy moments of synchronicity?
XOXO
Gabriela

Feeling Feelings

There’s a stigma on feelings. It’s quiet funny actually, how we think we should just turn certain ones off if they’re not fitting for an occasion. We don’t necessarily have control over a situation but we absolutely have control over which colored lens we choose to view it in.  As someone who is an inherently positive person, I tend to view the world in a sunshine colored filter. Things happen, people happen, but nine times out of ten I choose to be happy. But sometimes, especially at night, I get sad. Sometimes it’s because of something someone did, sometimes it’s because I remember something that hurt, sometimes it’s because I’m human and sometimes our walls crumble without our permission. Sometimes it’s even just weltschmerz- “world sadness”, one that happens because there’s this realization that the world deviates from our ideal expectations. The thing is, it doesn’t matter- it just happens. If you’re anything like me this leads to a train of thoughts, one that can veer off tracks pretty quickly if you don’t pull the breaks really fast. I think of why I’m sad, I reason, I use logic, I write, I wonder why I feel sad when I know I don’t have a reason to, and then I get angry at myself because I feel sad, and then I start to feel dumb for feeling sad. Funny, right? Here’s the thing though- reminderIt is. It is 100% okay to feel sad sometimes. One of my favorite yoga classes revolved around the theme of tastes, of palettes. We need sour and tart and bitter to know what sweet tastes like. We need a whole variety of flavors to live a beautiful, rich and full life. And you know what? That means our hearts are bound to hurt, we’re bound to be broken and we’re sure to feel sad. You know what else that means? That means you’ve got to stitch yourself up, grab your favorite shoes and kick down some new doors. Being okay with feeling is not weakness. Sadness is not weakness. Choosing to feel is not weakness. Choosing to embrace life, even when it’s damn hard, takes strength, Sitting with your sadness to learn from it takes strength. Sometimes we need a reminder that it’s okay to feel sad sometimes. Well, this is it.

You are strong. You are the universe incarnate. It’s okay.

XOXO
Gabriela

Why I Wanna Make Space Goth Happen

Throw it back to the summer of ’06. I was 12, going into the 7th grade and I was at a JCC summer camp where each day we went and did a different nifty thing in Atlanta. This particular day I don’t know where we went, maybe Dahlonega, but I do remember this; a really sweet comic bookstore and leaving it with three vintage Sabrina The Teenage Witch comics from the 70’s. Score. So I was on the  bus, riding back to the JCC, doing my thing and reading my sick comics. There was one section I still remember; letters readers wrote to Sabrina, this time about what they thought the year 2000 would be like. According to these wise flower children, by the time the new millennium rolled around we would be living on the moon and life would be totally Zenon (even if they didn’t know it yet).alien gothOkay well news flash to these poor souls. It’s 2015, we don’t live on the moon and according to the government and the mass population, aliens don’t even exists (they do). What?! It’s 2015 and you can freeze a body but we haven’t contacted aliens? I don’t understand. I’m very clearly upset by this, obviously, and I realized something the other day that inspired this post. We have no clue (zip, zilch) about what aliens would be like or look like, We really don’t. But- we can imagine, hence the Roswell New Mexico style green guy- and we can also find some aesthetic inspiration from the cosmos.

I remembered my comics the other day,  and started thinking about how far we are from what those children thought the year 2000 would be like. Well, we may not have aliens, but we so totally can and should dress the way they imagined we would. In 50 years, the fashion history text books are going to be writing about what the youngins in the second decade of the 21st century wore. They may very well be talking about how the 90’s and 80’s came back, or about what people wear to raves or Coachella. But you know what they should be talking about? Space Goth. Yes,  Space Goth. Or any sort of space or alien inspired aesthetic. Why? Because aliens still haven’t come down to hang with us Twilight Zone style, or maybe they have, and that’s sad. So, we should be inspired by our alien friends and dress like what we think they would dress like.

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If the fashion history textbooks and historians and all those humans are going to be writing about what we’re wearing, we may as well give them something to write about. In the age of technology, where we know so much, there’s still so much left to wonder about. We’re the Aquarius children anyway, why don’t we find inspiration from the unknown, from life beyond our solar system or even life beyond death?

Here’s to the unknown.

Here’s to making Space Goth happen.

Why I Chose Witchcraft

Preface- Witchcraft and Wicca are not evil and their practitioners don’t worship Satan. Wicca is a nature based religion that honors the male and female aspects of divinity through the changing of the seasons, known as the Wheel of the Year. The Wiccan Rede, aka as close as Wiccans have to any book or bible or whatnot states the intention of the religion very simply; do what ye will, an ye harm none. Aka – do what you will as long as you harm none in the process. Witchcraft is a little bit harder to define since there’s such a variety of practices. For me, Witchcraft means that I use magick and energy work to solidify a specific intention, again, not in a Satanic or evil way.

This is about my experience with my relationship to witchcraft. I am both Wiccan and a Witch, so naturally, this story on why I chose The Craft is tangled up in both aspects.

I am the daughter of a Rabbi, and the granddaughter of holocaust survivors and I am Jewish by blood. Culturally, I am Jewish; my dad was born in Israel, my mother grew up in the Jewish community in Mexico City. I will always be proud of my heritage, of the people I come from because they are some of the strongest in the world. But I am Wiccan and I am a Witch. 1

I chose Witchcraft.

I chose witchcraft, intentionally, at the age of 12, right before I was sent of to a month long sleep away Jewish summer camp. I chose Witchcraft when I read “A Witches Guide to Faery Folk” when I was 11 and had flashbacks to standing in front of a wax statue talking to me about Wicca in Salem, five years before. I’ve talked about my history with The Craft here, and I want to talk about where I am now; over 10 years later, and still calling myself a Witch.

I choose Witchcraft because it feels like home. I don’t know how else to describe it. For me, Witchcraft is a relationship I have with myself, with the universe, with the God and Goddess, with nature, with seasons and with energy. Witchcraft, for me, is when I read tarot, when I listen to phases of the moon and perform spells and magick and rituals that follow her and her ebb and flow. Witchcraft for me is honoring my spirit guides, it’s when I feel how things are changing, it’s when I honor the solstices and the equinoxes. Witchcraft for me is using the never ending energy of the universe to help me create, manifest and understand this life.

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I think there’s something about balance that really makes me love this path, specifically with Wicca. There’s a feminine as much as a masculine, and with my own eclectic path there is a darkness as much as their is a light. I am in no way saying ~white or black magick~ because that’s a pet peeve of mine. Energy is energy; it is neither good nor bad, and it is our judgment that colors it. I believe in positive and negative, but again, that’s how we shape our energy, how we chose to cultivate it.

I am inspired by my darkness. I am inspired by the darkness of others. I am inspired by the fact that there is so, so, so much more than we understand in this life. Witchcraft for me is learning about my Aquarius Sun, Scorpio Moon, Libra Rising soul and understanding about others astrological charts. Wicca for me is my relationship to the God and Goddess inside myself, to the Earth, to the seasons. Witchcraft for me is about the wheel of the  year, it’s about how I navigate this life.

I am inspired by the ancient Celts, by European Hedge Witches who have had witchcraft in their families for years. I am inspired by herb folklore and by spirits. I am inspired by death, by ghosts and phantoms and the unknown. This exploration, for me, this attempt to understand, is why I continue to choose witchcraft. 4Magick for me, is setting an intention and creating a way for it to manifest. It’s manipulated energy. Witchcraft, for me, follows this same path and idea. Witchcraft is using the tools you’re given to create, to change, to heal, to grow. Medicine Woman, Shamans, Witches.. they all have this innate understanding. There’s this recognition that this Earth is filled with secrets, and if we listen we can understand them

I chose, and I continue to choose, Witchcraft because for me it means being a good person, understanding karma, using what I have to make a change and knowing this life isn’t it. Witchcraft for me, is the way I love others and myself. It is how I live this life. Witchcraft  is the fact I feel powerful in all black, the fact that I can wear my darkness while innately being a light soul. Witchcraft is my love of divination, of ghosts, of spell work, of the occult.

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Witchcraft, for me, is home.

 

The Secret Garden of Temperance

There are cards that are easy to interpret and there are ones that are a bit trickier. Temperance is one of those cards that tends to stump me when it comes up in a reading. The tarot resonates in funny ways and I’m sure this is a hard card for me because it’s what I have trouble internalizing most; balance. The universe always has perfect timing, and Mercury was retrograde as I shot this look (thankfully it’s direct again!) This past retrograde was all about digging up the past, learning from the muck and moving forward… it was rough. Sometimes you have to go on and move forward and keep going with life; find your footing and balance between harsh elements. That’s exactly what this card teaches us.cardTemperance speaks of working with opposing elements and using them to find balance. Battle water with fire, earth with air. Temperance is a card of renewal, a flowing stream promising something better, something easier. I was so excited to shoot with  my favorite, Mary Decrescenzio, after what feels like years of not working together. Although lots of rain made the waterfalls we shot at murky, it still felt perfect to shoot among the flowing water; it’s exactly what Temperance represents. This card talks about moderation, about working among the elements and not giving or taking too much. Temperance is a card of healing, of renewal. It is, more than anything, a little glimmer of hope.gabbi-2Temperance urges us to find a sense of honesty, of balance and a sense of purity with what we do. Not too hot, not too cold…just right. It speaks of being like the heron and find your balance and find peace in a sense of opposition. I wanted to interpret this card surrounded by water, with pieces in sweet blue and just a touch of red (lipstick always counts). I picked up this wonderful vintage teddy from my job, Hip Wa Zee, and paired it with this sweet little robe I got from my friend Ivory who runs an incredibly curated vintage shop called Forgotten Feather Vintage. I was feeling very “Secret Garden” since we took so many photos amidst the incredible foliage. gabbi-3All you can do in life is take little baby steps every day. Learning from the past to move forward. Learning from the fire so you know to add a little more water next time. Temperance reminds us to find our own secret garden, our own place of peace. A safe haven to remind us that once we find balance, everything else will fall into place. Here’s to a fresh start and learning from the ease of the water.gabbi-5 gabbi-8 gabbi-7gabbi-23gabbi-28gabbi-30gabbi-36gabbi-45gabbi-25gabbi-49gabbi-57gabbi-64gabbi-81gabbi-70gabbi-74gabbi-91gabbi-89gabbi-103gabbi-20agabbi-21agabbi-107gabbi-121gabbi-112gabbi-126gabbi-129gabbi-127

Here’s to finding balance and moving forward.

Namaste,

Gabriela

 

#jointhereformation

Okay folks, I haven’t blogged in an ungodly amount of time and I know I was suppose to make announcements about why weeks ago.. well Mercury is retrograde and I am the worst, so after weeks of leaving you all shivering with antici….pation here it goes. I just finished up interning with Rick Owens at his showroom for Market Week for two weeks! I was in New York and let me tell you, that is a city you fall in love with. I had an amazing time and met some of the most hardworking and wonderful people and it truly surpassed any and all of my expectations. I have  a ton of pictures from my trip which WILL be turned into a blog post, I promise. BUT today’s blog post is featuring a brand that The Numinous founder Ruby Warrington turned me onto; Reformation. 5[1]Okay so besides the fact that Reformation makes sexy clothes that are swoon worthy all on their own, the story behind the brand is what makes it so totally Numinous (for lack of a better word). The brand was created by Yael Aflalo in 2009, and is leading the way in sustainable fashion. Every single piece is produced and manufactured in downtown Los Angeles and each collection is limited edition, how can you not swoon?! Garments are made with recycled and sustainable fibers, hangers in the store are recycled, orders are shipped in 100% recycled packaging; this is what the future of “fast fashion” needs.  Reformation tracks exactly how big of a carbon footprint each garment creates, and they take note; the idea of being better isn’t enugh; transformation and being the best is.  I couldn’t say no this bodysuit, especially knowing that it was a guilt free buy, so thanks Reformation. I’ve officially joined the cause. 6[1] 7[1]8[1]1[1]2[1]3[1]4[1]10[1]11[1]If you want to learn more about Reformation and how they’re changing the game, check it out HERE.9[1]

As always, photo by my incredibly talented twin, Alexandra Herstik (@alexyael).

 Namaste,

Gabriela

#JOINTHEREFORMATION

 

Friday’s are for Ace of Cups

I love the tarot because after building a relationship with the deck weird things start to happen…like very strange things. You’ll shuffle a deck really, really well only to have the same exact card that just fell out of the deck mid-shuffle come up. Or, you’ll think about how you don’t pull a card a lot and then pull it. Or, perhaps, you’ll draw a card of the day in the morning, go about your day, come home,  decide you want to blog about a tarot card, put the card back in the deck, reshuffle the deck and pull the same exact card as you did that morning. Sometimes you can’t ignore the signs (especially when they’re pretty much cosmic and probably coming from the universe.)  So , today I’m blogging about the Ace of Cups.

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Yoshitaka Amano

Ah, the Ace of Cups. The card of new emotional beginnings, a card that sings of new love. The whole uncanny tarot thing also manages to go back to the idea that you pull cards that really speak to where you are in the moment, even if you don’t want to admit it. For the first time since September I’m in a place where everything feels new and fresh and free. I’ve come back from London, we sold our house, I know I’ll be in New York City for at least a little (interning with Rick Owens for Market Week!). There’s just this whole feeling that things are shifting and changing and transforming, especially with matters of the heart. I found some comfort before I left, in someone who I thought would eventually become a semi- permanent fixture in my life. Things never go as planned though. Life is tricky and distance is trickier and sometimes people who are meant to be in your life aren’t. I think it’s important to let go of what doesn’t serve you but I’m also the head gal to tell you that the universe is working in your highest favor, and that if things and people are meant to be in your life in the future…they will be. So you know what? For now,  I’m basking in the unknown, and floating in the sweet abyss that is transformation and new beginnings.

ace 2And then.. the Ace of Cups shows up. With its beautiful chalice and water and wonderful promise of new beginnings. There’s love in the air! There’s a promise of new beginnings! And you know what?  That’s pretty reassuring. But one of the reasons I wanted to write about this card was because sometimes the best thing you can do to channel the Ace of Cups is focus and love yourself. The universe always seems to be working on the law of least resistance; you have to let go to make things happen. If we put all our energy into one thing its like putting a kink in a hose; it won’t flow as smoothly. So, instead of focusing on loves beginnings, it’s important to take time and focus on ourselves every once in a while, so we have what we want sorted out before we share it with someone else. Fall in love with yourself before you let someone fall in love with you (or before you fall in love with someone else). Love all your weird quirks and the way your hair looks when you first wake up and how you sing along to your favorite song and how silly you probably look when you talk to your dog. Embrace who you are because as soon as you do, the universe will cheer you on and embrace you right back.

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Antonella Castell

The Ace of Cups is a reminder to be open to the universe and who it brings into your life. It’s a reminder that like death, when one door closes another opens; to have loves beginnings, there must be a sort of ending before it.

Here’s to the next chapter.

Gabriela

Tombstone Tuesdays

Okay folks, my time in London is coming to an end and I STILL can’t believe how fast it’s gone by. I’ve been absolutely HORRIBLE at posting, and I can’t apologize enough. If you keep up with me on instagram, you’ll be able to see more of my day-to-day, and hopefully once I’m back in the states I’ll be posting more. I don’t have classes on Tuesday and I decided that instead of shopping or sleeping or drinking coffee that I would spend some time outside and explore a new cemetery. I went to Tower Hamlets Cemetery Park to think, center and reflect, appropriate on #tombstonetuesday.

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Photo of me by Alexandra Herstik, everything else by yours truly

I’ve been trying to find my footing in uncertainty. My parents are moving back to San Diego in the next couple of months, we’re all moved out of our house (which I said goodbye to before I left), and I still don’t know what I’ll be up to this summer. Throw in an over-analyzing brain, a girl who likes to know where she stands in other peoples lives. leaving somewhere you’re finally finding your footing in and the idea of graduating college in a year and you have the perfect combination of lots of things and emotions going on at once (hence this horridly long run on sentence). So, I decided to do what I do best; get lost in my thoughts and wander around in a cemetery and think and all that stuff.

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Photo of me by Alexandra Herstik, everything else by yours truly

I’m a firm believer in taking time to connect to something, whether it’s art or the earth, religion or the universe.. I don’t think feeling isolated and small will serve you, especially if you let it overtake you. I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means for me to believe in something else and I’ve been trying to find that sweet spot where presence, connection and surrender meld into one. I believe in reincarnation, and I think that the idea of something after I die makes me grateful for every aspect of this life, including the idea that one day there will be something else, that one day (in many, many, MANY, years) when I die, it won’t be the end. By seeing death as a new beginning I’m left feeling more grateful for everything that I have and everything that I will have, in this life and the next.I decided to connect to my spirit guides and my own intuition and the universe today, inspired by the idea of gratuity and death and new beginnings. The best way I could think to do this was to explore a new place. I spent a little time in the cemetery and I think it was exactly what I needed. I love cemeteries for a few reasons, but especially because I like thinking about how each grave must hold an endless amount of stories by its inhabitant. Old graves hold secrets and stories from a world I’ve never even known, and if that’s not something that makes you think…I also think there’s something beautiful about going back to the earth, and I think that cemeteries hold a sort of veil and energy that’s not found anywhere else. Also, the romantic side of me thinks that true love is being buried next to the person you love.Anyway, it was beautiful and sunny and windy and the crows and birds kept me company. I left feeling lightheaded from all the energy and connected… sometimes that’s all you need to change your mindset.11069664_10152649820101207_4752055735583772118_n 11058508_10152649819741207_7215046054504098854_n11081166_10152649820961207_3443161150832182003_n 11081100_10152649818416207_424294941004413263_n 11078082_10152649821381207_7415094833591180482_n 11076291_10152649825986207_7673953172657434180_nbackkkk10409036_10152649824911207_2717809318463832262_n21985_10152649820321207_6061204033378854276_n17405_10152649821651207_8681178624411243368_nIf you’re in London, I definitely suggesting taking some time to explore Tower Hamlets Cemetery. It’s beautiful and a good place to go to find some peace.

Cheers lovers,

Gabriela

HOW TO BE AN ALIEN LUNAR DEATH QUEEN GODDESS

It’s a big statement to make and I may not be the human to make such a statement but here is my advice on how to be an Alien Lunar Death Queen Goddess in 2015.ALIEN PRINCESS1. LOOK TO THE COSMOS

How do you expect to appreciate this life if you don’t appreciate the vastness of it? When you’re coming home from the bar at 11pm, or from your friends house or the library, look up towards the heavens and appreciate the stars. Even if you don’t believe iN anything, you can at least appreciate the beauty of the night (and the moon and the stars and Mars). Who knows who’s living out there?! Alien friends may be trying to communicate and we may not know!

2. APPRECIATE YOUR DREAMS

Have you woken up from a striking dream at an uncanny hour for the past three nights? Take note! Your dreams say a lot about your present situation in life as well as what you may be going through in the future (not to mention what your unconscious may be potentially dealing with). Keep a dream journal, or use an app (I love the Dreams Diary and Dreams Mood app for Iphone ) and figure out what is is your dreams are telling you. Find connection to the part of yourself that resides in the dark.

3. WORK WITH CRYSTALS

Need some peace? Grab an amethyst. Need to channel your higher power in every sense?? Grab a crystal quartz point or amethyst. Work with stones and find your center or whatever it is you need to find. A good list of crystal correspondences can be found HERE.

4. DAYDREAM

How do you expect to connect to the ultra-cool, astral lunar death queen goddess part of yourself if you  never let your imagination take over and drift off? There’s a reason the imagination is so powerful and that’s because it has the power to literally create and shape the world around us. Buddha once said “what you think, you become’. Thoughts become things, so may as well drift into that sweet spot and daydream yourself into the dimension where everything makes sense.

5. WEAR WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT TO WEAR

Want to wear an oversize floral tee with leather leggings, a vintage flannel and a pair of Dr. Martins, coupled with a grandpa sweater and red lips? GO FOR IT. Wear whatever your little alien, death queen, astral traveling soul desires. If you feel powerful in it (and it’s decently appropriate for the situation) GO FOR IT. What screams ” I control intergalactic dimensions” more than a great outfit and some confidence?? Absolutely nothing.

ALIEN PRINCESS 26. FIND WHAT YOU LOVE AND OWN IT

What screams GODDESS OF THIS LIFE AND BEYOND more than owning your own passion?? Whether it’s film, math, fashion, art, music or medicine, having a passion in this life is a gift! Own it. Use what you love and make a difference, inspire yourself and others, create your own reality based on this passion and give back to the world in which it was born. Even if you don’t have a singular passion, do what you love and you’ll be sending all the good vibes back into the world.

7.DAYDREAM ABOUT ALIENS

How can you expect to be an alien death queen goddess if you don’t think about aliens?! The probability that there is something beyond this life is astounding, so you may as well take some time to think about what this would mean in the context of your own reality. Or, at least take time to daydream about how cool having an alien bff would be (and what they would look like)!

8. FIND CONNECTION

It may be finding connection through yoga, through religion, through divination, through friendships, but finding deep rooted connections is so, so important. Find your roots. Own them. You can’t expect to live an interstellar life if you don’t know where exactly your roots began.

9. WEAR WEIRD COLORED LIPSTICK

This is simply because nothing will make you feel more like a lunar goddess than wearing lilac lipstick with silver eyeliner. Or maybe you’re more of a inky blue kinda girl, regardless. experiment with how you look. The way in which you travel through this life does have an impact on how you feel. Wear what makes you feel like the lunar alien death queen goddess you are.

10. RIDE YOUR CRYSTAL COVERED CHARIOT THROUGH THIS LIFE AND THE NEXT AND BE GRATEFUL FOR IT

Be unapologetically who you are. Ride the crystal chariot you created through this life and the next with an unyielding sense of appreciation for everything and everyone who has shaped you into the god(dess) you are and own it. Be thankful for what this life has taught you and envision your future; find what you love and believe in it without any doubts and it will manifest. Ride the unyielding wave of appreciation for who you are and what you encompasses and this world will give you amazing things.

OWN YOUR INNER ALIEN GODDESS AND CREATE YOUR OWN REALITY.

I hope everyone finds some sense of peace and comfort today.

Namaste,

Gabriela

 

Original photos by Mary Louise DeCrescenzio and Alexandra Hersitk (@alexyael)

Sundays at Stonehenge

Today was a wonderful day of firsts and lasts. I’ve known that I wanted to go to Stonehenge since before my plans to study in England were solidified. Beyond that, I knew that I wanted to go as close to my birthday as possible. Well, folks, dreams come true. I spent my last day as a 20-year-old at Stonehenge and Bath; to say it was incredible is an understatement. I was born on February 2nd, also known as Imbolc. Imbolc is a Gaelic holiday that’s been adopted by neo-pagans as a celebration of the earth beginning to wake up and get ready for spring; it’s a day of light and new beginnings. Classically, Imbolc honors the Celtic goddess Brigid, the goddess of inspiration, fire and light. What better way to mark the beginning of a new year than to visit an ancient landmark on a day that honors a Celtic diety?! Although the Druids didn’t build Stonehenge, (it dates back 5000 years, way before the Celts), the stones were used as markers at the solstices and Stonehenge was probably used as a spiritual gathering place as well. Processed with VSCOcam with a6 presetAlthough the stones were smaller than I anticipated, and I couldn’t actually touch them (what a bummer), it was still so incredible to get to see Stonehenge in real life.There were lots of sheep and ravens and it was definitely a surreal feeling to look around and see this ancient landmark against the beautiful English countryside. This past year has been the best year yet. Of course, there’s always turbulence, but I’m thankful for all the opportunities and experiences I’ve had this past year. I started 2015 on a different continent and I’m starting 21 the same way.  My mantra and intention for the year is “I will live in love, gratuity, presence, abundance and joy”. I’m sure everything else will fall into place after that.

Processed with VSCOcam with a5 presetI got so close to this raven, which happens to be my favorite bird. The raven is the bird of the goddess The Morrigan, a Celtic triple goddess. Pretty perfect for 21 and Stonehenge. Ravens are typically considered messengers, they’re linked with intuition, the occult and the other side. 10582809_10152537612921207_6144597560751144715_o 10974482_10152537614051207_3621929270395187131_o 10945696_10152537614781207_5906529860533202302_o10397182_10152537613561207_8082965418265180698_ounnamed (1)Processed with VSCOcam with a6 presetProcessed with VSCOcam with a6 presetAfter Stonehenge we went to Bath, but that’s a post for later this week. Happy Sunday folks. Here’s to a new year, new adventures and lots and lots of abundance and love!

Namaste,

Gabriela

When The Unknown Becomes The Known

This past week in my style journalism class we were asked to think of something going on in the world that we believe could impact fashion. After presenting our ideas, we were asked to write a blog post about it. I chose to write mine on outer space and the unknown. Happy Sunday folks.

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There’s a romanticism that’s felt when thinking of the unknown. After mastering all of the frontiers it’s easy to feel stagnant, to feel like our work is finished. The world is in a turbulent state and perhaps it’s in this difficulty that we turn towards daydreams, finding inspiration in the unknown by wondering about our place in the world.

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Perhaps, it’s when violence, war and poverty start seeping more and more into our perception of this life that we’re left looking towards space. In the 60’s we landed on the moon and we felt powerful and indestructible. 50 years later and we’re still inspired by space, by what may or may not be out there, and by the concept of finding our place in this universe, in this world and in this life.

Last week, the Air Force declassified over 10,000 UFO sightings and investigations, releasing them for online for free at Project Blue Book: The Black Vault. Besides the infinite amount of inspiration, and some eerie, eerie encounters, the Air Force declassifying these files only feeds our hunger to know what’s out there. NASA recently released the largest photo in the world of the Andromeda Galaxy, shaking up our perception of where we stand, quite literally, in the universe. Couple both of these amazing feats with the movie Interstellar, and there’s a clear motif that’s happening.

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We are constantly searching for ways to make the unknown become the known.

We are hungry for meaning, and purpose and fuel for something larger than ourselves, and the fashion industry is wildly involved in making this quest a popular one. Websites like The Numinous are making spirituality accessible and fashionable. The site weaves fashion and spirituality together, creating a platform for the “numi girl” who wants to look good and find purpose while doing so. Brands like Crystal Cactus, I Am Vibes and even UNIF, are all incorporating spiritual and occult motifs into their clothing, whether it’s through crystals and hamsas to pentacles and tarot cards.

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Photo courtesy of The Numinous

We’re screaming to the universe, hoping it answers. We’re finding our footing in places that don’t feel concrete, and we’re trying to find our roots regardless. So, what do space and aliens and Interstellar mean for fashion? Perhaps it means inspiration. Perhaps it means UNIF, or I am Vibes will be inspired by a UFO sighting, or Interstellar, or by the beauty of our galaxy. It certainly means one thing; our fascination of wanting to know what’s out there and what it means for us down here isn’t going anywhere any time soon.

 

 

New Moon Thoughts

Yesterday was the new moon in Aquarius. A super moon in fact; when the moon is closest to the earth and in direct alignment with the sun and earth at the time of the new moon. In other words, this is a super strength new moon. A perfect time to start fresh, let go and imitate the nature of mother moon herself. As the moon waxes and her light grows, grow along with it whatever it is you need this year; balance, happiness, love, letting go of angry thoughts, even money… But be warned. As of today, Mercury is in retrograde! Hold off on making big decisions or booking any travels, and instead use it as a time to “reflect and revise”.Mercury in retrograde means it looks as if Mercury is spinning backwards, although it’s not actually! Everything Mercury rules however, is sent spinning. If you want to know more about the supermoon check HERE, if you want to know more about Mercury being in retrograde, click HERE.

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The Wild Unknown tarot deck

Yesterday was the new moon in Aquarius. A super moon in fact; when the moon is closest to the earth and in direct alignment with the sun and earth at the time of the new moon. In other words, this is a super strength new moon. A perfect time to start fresh, let go and imitate the nature of mother moon herself. As the moon waxes and her light grows, grow along with it whatever it is you need this year; balance, happiness, love, letting go of angry thoughts, even money… But be warned. As of today, Mercury is in retrograde! Hold off on making big decisions or booking any travels, and instead use it as a time to “reflect and revise”.Mercury in retrograde means it looks as if Mercury is spinning backwards, although it’s not actually! Everything Mercury rules however, is sent spinning. If you want to know more about the supermoon check HERE, if you want to know more about Mercury being in retrograde, click HERE. A couple of days ago I drew the five of cups as my card for the day. I asked what I needed to learn, what I needed to focus on, and this was the card I got. Sadness, grief, feeling the effects of your emotions. Not necessarily the happiest card, but it did make me think of some things, applicable to fresh starts and the emotional harvesting they entail. New, fresh starts mean letting go. Sometimes that’s easy, but a lot of the time it’s not easy at all. Sometimes the best thing we can do for ourselves is to let go, even when it’s hard and it makes us sad. If you’re logical and emotional like I am, you get angry at yourself for feeling sad or having a hard time letting go of that which you know logically is no longer serving you. This card was a reminder for me to learn from my sadness; to observe it, to watch it and not to get angry at myself for feeling sadness or grief at something ending. Have compassion with yourself; Don’t fixate and get angry at yourself for being sad. Letting go takes time. Perspective is everything. Choose to be the observer of your sadness, knowing that it’s a natural part of the process of healing and moving on to new and better things, and focus on those things instead. Don’t fixate. Breathe. Love and be compassionate.

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Make a conscious effort everyday to let go of that which does not serve you. Imitate the moon and grow in whatever way will serve your spirit best, whether you’re choosing compassion, to go to yoga, to dress in your favorite color more…whatever it is your soul wants.  You know what they say…

New Moon, new you.

Namaste,

Gabriela

POWER

It’s almost halfway into the first month of the new year. It’s been 2015 for two weeks! Who would have thought. And although it’s been an incredible two weeks, I think that it’s also the perfect time to step back, asses, and once again, dig deep. Things are constantly shifting and changing, and it’s in the moments when I resist that change that I have to step back and ask why. Personally, there comes a point when I’m drifting to sleep that my body is totally and utterly relaxed and I start to feel like I’m floating. It’s almost like pre-lucid dreaming; a moment when I can retain awareness without fully being conscious of it. I always have really interesting realizations during this point in my messed up sleep cycle (I love staying awake super late) and this happened the other night. It was about power. Who would have guessed. image3Power. It’s a word I throw around often. I love “dressing to feel powerful”, and being able to “channel my power” for whatever ending I’m hoping happens as a result. I love harnessing my own power. My personal power is a completely separate entity to power or control over others; I don’t want to have power over other people or situations. I am never for the game of manipulation. But power can be dangerous; it can consume us. Power can be an egos driving force. For someone who likes to plan, and who uses logic and who loves knowing what’s going on, power can be dangerous. Having so much control over myself, and my spirit and my own power means it’s harder for me to deal with people and situations that I can’t control. My thirst for empowerment has left me with a real need to surrender. I can wear all the black I want, and wear red lipstick and I can feel so powerful, but at the end of the day, sometimes letting go is the most powerful action I can perform.image1

Kim Krans, the artist behind The Wild Unknown tarot deck, posted this spread on Instagram. One card for each month of the year, with one card being the overarching “theme”. Two weeks into the month and I finally had enough time and energy to follow through. It seems as if this year is all over the board, from heartbreak and self empowerment to finding comfort in my home. The theme for the year, however, is one of my favorite cards, The Moon. View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabbiAh, the moon. She’s inspired photoshoots, poems and hopefully in 15+ years, my daughters name. The Moon, however, can be a somewhat questionable card. In this deck, it’s credited with “lack of direction, vivid dreams and fears”. The moon, however, to me, is linked with goddess, intuition and a consciousness that’s not always readily available during the day. The moon is darkness, and it’s true, in the dark directions get muddy and tangled, and often you will find yourself lost. After realizing my thirst for personal power, however, the words “lack of direction” sort of feels refreshing. Lack of direction could mean existing in the moment, with nowhere to be but now. Lack of direction could mean lack of power, a vulnerability that once again, is necessary for growth. Vivid dreams. Fear. Ahhh, fear, an old friend. Look how you’ve woven yourself into my year. What scares me more than not having power? Nothing.  And I’ve learned to bask in my fear, in trusting that there’s growth to be found in it. To me, The Moon means existing in the moment, surrendering to the present, vivid intuition and finding growth through what scares you the most.

image22015. It’s a year that will be linked to the moon, and fear, and surrendering. This year I will love more, resist less and let myself exist. Power is important, but there’s an effortlessness necessary in maintaing that sort of power, isn’t there?

Here’s to all the surrendering that comes with letting this year unfold.

Namaste,

Gabriela

The Freshest Start

There’s something sort of sweet about fear. With the idea of the unknown comes, well, the unknown, and often this conjures up feelings up of anxiety and it’s sister, fear. With a new year comes a fresh start, a new page, and a brand new opportunity to step out of your routine and out of your comfort zone. It’s scary, and terrifying, it’s uncomfortable and anxiety inducing; it’s change. It’s the unknown. It’s the wilderness. Yet with this realization that there’s fear comes the simple idea that there’s strength, knowledge and growth to be found in that same fear. How beautiful is it to be reminded that we must be scared to find change; we must be the pioneers to find new, uncharted territory. The new year promises yet another unknown, and a beautiful, clean slate. Today I’ve been basking in fear and remembering that there’s no growth to be found in your comfort zone, that perhaps being scared is the best gift one could have. Being scared means adventure is ahead. 5[1]Tomorrow, I am crossing the great pond to begin my semester at the London College of Fashion. I’m ready and I’m packed, but I’m nervous and a bit scared. I don’t know what to expect, but I do know that I have all the tools I need to be okay. Today was an incredible reminder that no matter what, even countries away, I will always have a support system. I spent the day with my best friend and my twin sister, going to Waffle House, enjoying some coffee, taking photos in fields and watching Sweeney Todd. I even celebrated my birthday with the twin a month early since we’ll be apart as we celebrate for the first time (I’ll turn 21 before she does, how funny). Today, I remembered that I will always have my tribe. It was an amazing beginning to the year, and a wonderful last hoorah before I leave. No matter where I go, I will always have the strength that my family and friends have instilled in me, and that’s a pretty beautiful start to the year. Today, take a moment to remember the strength you need to survive this world is already inside you. Perhaps the key to unlocking this strength is fear, and realizing that it’s okay to be scared. them[1]1[1]4[1]3[1]2[1]8[1]I’ve had all my clothing packed since Monday, so I’ve had the same five pieces on rotation since. Since I’m not bringing this skirt with me to England I thought it would be perfect to spend the day in.9[1]10[1]11[1]
Skirt: Vintage/ Sweatshirt: Zara/ Boots: Steve Madden/ Sweater and Jacket: H&M12[1]Here’s to the best year yet. Cheers!!

Gabriela

Photos by Alexandra Herstik, @alexyael

A Ritual for the New Year

Hello lovers, I hope everyone has had a fabulous holiday season! It’s absolutely insane to think that the new year is right around the corner, but it’s also quite a relief. 2015 sounds more concrete than 2014, at least to me, (I’m a fan of the number 5), and I’m excited for the fresh start the new year seems to bring. I think it’s important to find closure with what the past year has taught us, and I also think it’s important to think about what we want the next year to hold. I decided to share a little ritual that I practice at the end of the year, and whenever I feel the need for some closure.

9[1]RITUAL FOR THE NEW YEAR

My favorite ritual is pretty simple and it’s just three steps! It’s a simple way to release your baggage from the past year and a great way to really cultivate the idea of what you do want this next year. You’ll need a few things; some sage, or incense or salt ( I chose to use sage), whatever crystals you feel like represent what you want in the forthcoming year (ie rose quartz for love), some paper and a pen, fire, whether it’s a fireplace or a match and a sink (BE CAREFUL) and any tarot or oracle cards you want. Gather all your materials, find a sacred space and you’re ready to begin!

8[1]1. GATHER YOUR SUPPLIES. CENTER. BREATHE

I chose to draw a card for 2014, Daughter of Wands, and one for 2015, The High Priestess. I burned some sage, gathered my stones, and grabbed my Kwan Yin, Ganesh and raven statue. I grabbed a pen and paper and found myself by my fireplace ready to contemplate and write. Grab whatever it is that makes you feel at peace, whatever it is that represents what you want to cultivate for this next year. Find a quite place where you can write and think and reflect. I wanted my god and goddesses and animals and crystals as physical reminder of my beliefs and what I want this next year to hold. Ganesh is the remover of obstacles, and Kwan Yin is the goddess of prayer, very appropriate in this situation! Sit and think about this past year and this next year, about what you want to hold onto and what you want to let go of, for as long as you need.

7[1]2. WRITE

Here’s the fun part. I love writing, and I love writing letters. At the end of the year, I like to write two letters to the universe; one for the past year, one for the upcoming year  I go through and reflect on what I’ve learned, and who’s come into my life (and left). I think about everything this past year’s taught me, and I thank the universe for it. Then, in a separate letter, I write what I want to do and learn in this upcoming year. Here’s the best part; nothing is too big for the universe. I love to go into detail about what I want, creating my own future from the inside out. There’s no need to be modest, no one else is seeing this letter after all!  Think about what this past year has taught you and think of how you can use that in the next year. Reflect, take time to really think about what it is that you’ve learned and what exactly it is that you want and write it down.

5[1]3. BURN YOUR LETTERS

Okay, maybe I spoke to soon. Burning your letter is the best part of this little ritual. Once you’re finished writing, burn your letter and release the energy into the universe. I love throwing my letters into the fire place and seeing them burn, there’s something so satisfying about seeing your words dissipate into nothingness, it feels so final and complete. It’s wonderful closure and a wonderful beginning, everything that makes the new year feel especially exciting. If you don’t have the luxury of a fireplace, a match and a toilet or sink are just as good. If you have no fire at your disposal, tearing up your letter is a perfect substitute. Take time to sit with the finality of burning or cutting your letters; and realizing that there’s a fresh new beginning right around the corner. 10[1]3[1]2[1]4[1]6[1]1[1]

No matter what you plan on doing this new years, have fun, be safe and be thankful! There’s a wonderful, fresh start right around the corner. EMBRACE IT!

What’s your favorite new years ritual?.

Namaste,

Gabriela

Photos by Alexandra Yael

The Ultimate 2015 Resolution

I am completely and utterly ready for a new year. I am ready for a fresh start and a new chapter. I am ready for 2015 and for everything it holds, the good, the bad, the ugly. As the year draws closer and closer to a close, I continue to be inspired to really and truly dig deep and make some changes. As much as I love fall, winter always tests me emotionally, forcing me to examine deeper parts of myself that tend to go unnoticed in the warmer months. Today is the winter solstice and the new moon. After today, the days start to get longer and longer, and the nights shorter. Paired with the new moon, the solstice is the perfect time to celebrate and reflect on the past year and really focus on what we want to cultivate and grow in this next year. With the solstice and new moon urging me on, I’m making an effort to start my resolutions early, to try to start the new year of on the best foot I can.

4This year I’m making one resolution… to LOVE MORE.  That’s an all inclusive love that rings true in everything I do. I have a knack at getting agitated and angry at those I care about the most, my family, and it’s something I desperately need to change. I’m a creature of habit, but I’m also well aware that there are habits I need to break. Patterns are great if they serve you, not so much if they don’t. So, I want to dig deep, aim true and love this new year. Here are the three ways I plan to LOVE MORE in 2015.

1Love MYSELF

I’m all about self-love. I’m all about knowing you’re own worth and basking in it. I think having love for yourself means having love for other people. I think that self-love is the basis for all other love, so it’s the first thing on my list of resolutions. For 2015 I want to be more compassionate towards myselff and I want to be less judgmental as well. Self-love, for me, couples with witchcraft, yoga, tarot and magick. For me, my journey of loving myself means taking time to do the things that give me purpose and feed my soul. In 2015 I want to make an effort to connect, be present and really LOVE myself and my own spirit, path and soul.

This morning, I drew two cards for a simple reading, one for the solstice and one for the new moon. I drew the Six of Cups and The Wheel of Fortune, respectively. The Six of Cups speaks of finding your roots in memories and in your home. Finding comfort in what grounds you emotionally. The Wheel of  Fortune speaks of change, destiny and movement. For me, these cards together remind me to stay grounded in my roots, my family and friends, as things start to change and shift. This new year, I am reminded to take comfort in that which grounds me, even if things around me begin to move. 

2Love OTHERS

I’m putting it in my own cards, 2015 is going to be a year of growth. 2015 is the year I remember that anger is never the way to deal with situations that deviate from my own expectations. My biggest resolution in 2015 is to see the love in everyone, and to change old habits and patterns that don’t serve me. I want to be even more positive and happy than I am now, I want to remember that everyone is worthy of love. This new year, I’m loving those around me to the fullest extent that I can. I am making the effort to think before I speak, to react out of kindness and love and not frustration and anger, and to judge less. This new year, I am saying “I LOVE YOU” and meaning it, even more than I do now. 2015 will be a year of compassion, love, happiness and taking my reality into my own hands. 2015 is the year that I am the best person I can be.

yooooooooLove THE UNIVERSE.

Ahhh, the universe. The universe always knows what it’s doing, even if I don’t want to accept it. I’ve always said the universe has perfect timing, and even though it doesn’t always seem like it in the moment, nine times out of ten, in the long run things have a way of falling into place as they should. I find myself in a spiritual and emotional rut when my gratuity falters, when I have anxiety over things that haven’t happened and when I hold onto things I need to let go of. Loving the universe, for me, means knowing that I can’t change some things but that I can control how I view them. Loving the universe means saying THANK YOU when things are tough, and hard or even wonderful and beautiful.Loving the universe means knowing to surrender to the things that make me whole. Loving the universe means knowing I’m caught in something larger than myself, knowing that I have to surrender and live from my heart. I love this universe, and every single mystery it holds. 2015 will be the year that I live and love in THAT.

I want to love the most I can in every single way I can this year.

What are your resolutions?

Namaste,

Gabriela

The Magician

There’s a certain power that arises when you tap into your own intuition, into your own spirit, and declare to the universe that YOU are the one in charge of your own manifestations and actions. I think this sort of surrender is an ongoing process, and it’s one that I’m trying my best to practice each and every day. I think it’s important to keep in mind that although you may not have control over situations that arise in your life, you do have control over how you handle those situations. I think in this way, gratuity and positive intention really make a difference in the way that you deal with life’s punches; because here’s the thing, shit happens. It does. We don’t have control over that, but we do have control over how we view and handle those situations. It’s when it feels like life’s trying us most that gratuity becomes the key in coping.

View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianDon’t get me wrong, I think every emotion is worthy; the good and the “bad”. But I also believe that it’s easy to get stuck in an emotion, in a past story, and I also believe that gratuity for the present moment, as well as the past and the future, is the key to getting out of this rut.

The Magician sings of this sort of intentive action. She is inner strength, manifestation and power. She uses all the elements at her disposal to create. In this case, The Magician uses the suites of the tarot deck, the chalice, the wand, the sword and the pentacle, to conjure up whatever she so desires. The Magician is the second card in the tarot, although she is number one in the deck. The Chariot sings of movement forward, of inner strength being a guiding light of sorts. The Magician is this inner strength, this inner power, which is used to create and manifest whatever you want. View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianThe Magician sings a gratuitous song. She reminds us that we have control over ourselves, we are the ones driving our own chariot onward, creating our own path, manifesting whatever it is we so desire. The Magician is is the card of the individual, speaking to individual action and manifestation. When drawn in a reading, The Magician is a reminder that we have power to cultivate, that maybe we’re not seeing the bigger picture; maybe we’re not realizing the power of our own intentive manifestations. The Magician reminds us that we have the elements necessary to manifest our intention into reality.

I wanted to feel alive, regal, and (my version of) colorful in this outfit. I wanted to feel cloaked, and protected and magickal. I wore the dress I wore for my 20th birthday layered under a big, knit sweater and I added layered necklaces and a scarf i cinched around my waist. I wore two different mala beads around my wrist, wrapped my pentacle necklace into a bracelet, grabbed my skeleton hand chalice and figured I would grab a wand from the forest and use my eyes as daggers to round up all the suites in the card. I wanted to feel draped and covered with jewel tones, I wanted to feel strong and powerful, I wanted to feel like I was magick manifested. View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magician View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magician View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magician View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magician View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magician View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magician View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magician View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianDress: Urban Outfitters/ Sweater: Zara/ Necklaces: H&M and Forever 21/ Shoes: Jeffrey CampbellView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/magicianI’m so thankful for Mary and her amazing spirit. Working with her on this series has been absolutely amazing and I’m going to miss her while I’m in London! I can’t wait to continue this series and keep up with this beautiful woman. Find Mary’s Facebook HERE and her website HERE.

Namaste,

Gabriela

The Chariot

I don’t believe in cosmic coincidence. I don’t believe that things just happen; that which feeds our soul, those people who impact our lives, the moments where we stop and really and truly feel, to me, aren’t coincidence. One of my favorite ways to describe the tarot to people who are learning about it is as a map to places within ourselves that we’re unaware of. When I’m reading the cards, I imagine they’re blank until I flip them over; there’s a possibility that I can pull any card, and the one I pull is the one that I’m meant to. I don’t believe that  an accurate reading is a coincidence; I think that it’s channeling the same cosmic destiny of sorts that we see with the things I mentioned above; people and places and experiences that are literally too good to be thought of as coincidence. View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsThe Chariot has been beckoning to me. I’ve always been drawn to this card, and finding out two people I’m close to dubbed this their card of choice only furthers the significance of it.The artwork on this card is easily one of my favorites in the deck, and that’s no surprise since the beauty of the card is mirrored by the significance of what it represents. The Chariot is the seventh card in the tarot deck. She sings of action and movement forward guided by intuition. She speaks of direction and in a way, change. She is determination, she is knowing that movement, any movement, is better than staying stagnant. November was an intense month, where I found myself in an energetic and spiritual rut. It’s only within the past couple of days, specifically yesterday thanks to the powerful full moon, that I’ve started to find my footing once again. Today, this card has special significance. Today, The Chariot is telling me to keep going, to keep moving forward. View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsI chose to represent this card with silver, black and a lilac lip. My WITCH bag had to be brought out, because for me witchcraft is an extension of guided, intuitive movement and action like the card itself. I wanted a subtle equestrian feel to my look, so I chose to represent that with a silver leotard and a wide brimmed, vintage hat.I pulled this look knowing that I wanted to feel powerful, I wanted to feel capable and more than anything else, I wanted to feel like the one guiding my own chariot forward. View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabs View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabs View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabs View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabs View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabs View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabs View More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsLeotard: Amazon/ Hot Pants: ASOS/ Skirt: Urban Outfitters/ Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell/ Cardigan: American Threads/ Necklace: Extollo Jewelry/Purse: Dolls Kill/ Tarot deck: The Wild UnknownView More: http://marydecrescenziophotographer.pass.us/gabsToday, I urge you to find that which drives you onward. Find what feeds your soul, what speaks to you of destiny. Listen to your intuition. Know that you are capable, powerful and regardless of whatever else life throws at you, you are still guiding your own chariot.

It’s been so wonderful to work with the beautiful Mary DeCrescenzio. I am so thankful for her, for her spirit and for helping me make this series possible. Check out her beautiful work HERE and find her on Facebook HERE.

Namaste,

Gabriela

Movement Forward

10815150_10203345040215337_337382133_oI love dreary fall days, when the sky is dark and gloomy and the wind bites my cheeks as it stirs up some change. There’s something so thrilling about the air when it’s charged with the promise of something new, I love being able to sense the change in the air when Fall truly takes hold. I find myself feeling a little stagnant when I’m busy during the colder weather, as if my perspective shifts along with the season if I don’t find moments of stillness for myself. I’ve been back and forth an insane amount the past week, trying to do all I can so I have my Thanksgiving break free so I can relax, rejuvenate and plan for London. I’ve been inspired by The Chariot in the tarot deck, with it’s intentional action and movement forward. This Thanksgiving, I am reading, writing, relaxing and connecting to my own self and my own power. This Thanksgiving, I am inspired by all the change surrounding me, and I choose to use to drive me forward and not hold me back. Mary DeCrescenzio sent me some photos from The Chariot inspired set we shot, and I thought I would post them as a sneak peek.

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Namaste

Gabriela

 

Sunday’s Are for Surprises..

I’m so beyond excited to announce that I’m continuing my tarot series with the fabulous Mary DeCrescenzio. This beautiful lady and I were able to shoot yesterday and it was the perfect pick me up for an intense couple weeks. My twin, Alexandra, tagged along and we were able to shoot two looks inspired by two wonderful cards. I decided to shoot…

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The Magician and The Chariot

On Saturday, Alexandra and I ventured to Ed’s Editions, a really great used bookstore in West Columbia with a really great occult section. I wandered over and found the vintage tarot book pictured above and just about cried. It’s amazing, and dense and I can’t wait to take my time to really read it. The universe has perfect timing, finding this book the day before I shot some tarot inspired outfits? Perfection. 

The Magician

waonI picked the magician for a couple of reasons. First and foremost, it’s a card rooted in the idea of manifestation. The Magician speaks of using all the elements at your disposal to create whatever it is you desire. The four suites of the tarot deck (pentacles, cups, wands and swords) are all pictured in this card; the magician has control over every aspect of his/her destiny; material, emotional, creative and spiritual… it’s all there. The imagery in this card is also really, really rich (I have two other decks that I used for inspiration as well). It was easy to be inspired by The Magicians power.

The Chariot

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The Chariot is one of those cards that truly sings to the spirit and inner power. This card is all about movement, action and intention; it’s that inner voice that tells you to keep going, it’s that inner drive that makes you move forward. The Chariot from The Wild Unknown is one of my favorites in the deck. It’s probably my favorite image and the horse with the moon on her third eye and a pentacle near her heart really speaks of what the card represents. Intense, intuitive movement forward.

treesMy sister, Alexandra Yael, snapped this photo yesterday while we were shooting.

I can’t wait to share more.

Namaste,

Gabriela

PS: This tarot deck is The Wild Unknown

 

Anticipation

Anticipation is such a double edged sword. Being excited about something is fun and having something to look forward to is a blessing; it’s a good thing. Anticipation in the best sense of the word means there’s something coming up that must be worth getting excited for, and that’s pretty great. When reality doesn’t match up to your expectations things can get thrown off balance. Anticipation is good, but in moderation. Anticipate too much and you’re living in the future, missing all the beautiful moments that are happening right now.

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Taken by the beautiful Ivory of Forgotten Feather Vintage

Anticipation for the what’s to come and for work at the end of the month has left me living in the future. My anticipation for all the good things to come made me miss the good things that are already here. Life gets busy and for me, my favorite month of the year has been slipping by. I have to say though, the past week and a half of 90 degree weather hasn’t been helping either. South Carolina has been slacking with the fall weather.

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On Saturday, I dressed up with other people from my job at Hip Wa Zee to introduce Megan Jean and the Klay Family Band for Jam Room Festival here in Columbia. I hung out with some awesome people, got to pick some pumpkins, go to the fair and spend the night hanging out with some of my closest friends. It was such a good day, and it reminded to be thankful of what’s going on right now, even if the future seems more important.

I got some little pumpkins at the pumpkin patch and put them on my altar as a little reminder to be present and acknowledge the change of the season, as hard as the weather may make it sometimes. 


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 Every time I look at my altar I’m reminded of a good day and of the fact that it’s the best time of year, and not to waste it. I’m trying to stay present and enjoy life this week, no complaints. 

Namaste,

Gabriela 

Pride and Balance

It’s a tricky balance to remain humbled by any sort of recognition or success while still taking pride in your accomplishments. I know it’s something I struggle with, constantly comparing myself to others who are doing “better” things makes me take less pride in my own aaccomplishments  There’s always room for improvement and a sense of instability is important with anything, in my opinion. I think that it’s important to remain open to change and growth, but it’s important to be proud of where you are right now. My lack of pride could very well be a testament to my inability to live in the present; perhaps all we need to do to be proud of ourselves is live in the now.

moddddddddI’ve been interning with MOD Magazine since July and it’s been an amazing experience. Besides blogging for them, I also had the really, really cool opportunity of writing a piece for their printed issue. I wrote a piece on Serbian fashion designer Ana Ljubinkovic, and although I knew it was a feature article I didn’t realize it would be a cover story. It was pretty awesome seeing my name in the issue. Although MOD is available online for free, I had to order my own copy since it was my first published piece.  annaaaaRight after this was published I felt really excited and proud, normal feelings for hard work paying off. Then I automatically started negating these feelings, say how I didn’t really have a reason to be proud, or excited; bigger and better things were coming, why would i be proud of this.

It’s hard sometimes to step back and be proud of yourself. I’m not saying you should completely lose yourself to ego because that definitely will not serve you in the least. Although, I do think it’s important to take a step back and be kind to yourself; realize that although you didn’t necessarily win the Olympics, you won a race, every Olympian has to start somewhere after all.

There’s a lot happening right now; tomorrow is the full moon, and an eclipse and Mercury is in retrograde. Be kind to yourself. Yes, there is always something bigger and better to come but where you are right here and right now is a pretty good place to be.

What are you proud of today?

Namaste,

Gabriela

PS- If you want to read the latest issue of MOD, you can HERE.

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I think that there are certain people, things and experiences that are meant to come into our lives; whether they’re meant to shape us, help us grow and teach us, there’s a reason they show up. Yoga is one of those things for me. Yoga is the counterpart to my love for fashion; it addresses who I am inside, while my love for style addresses that in a physical way.1516 Interestingly enough, I don’t really think about what I wear to yoga, it’s the one time during the day that I don’t care how I look. I tend to buy my yoga clothes from TJ Maxx since they have really great, inexpensive active wear. I like colorful sports bras, black yoga leggings and soft, dreamy pullovers. I don’t spend much time thinking about how I look which is refreshing. Sometimes, however, I have to go somewhere after class and I don’t have time to grab extra clothes or change. For those moments, I like to make sure I look halfway decent.14Thanks to PINK by Victoria’s Secret here at University of South Carolina, I’ve just received my new favorite yoga pants. I’m not even going to deny that I love fitted yoga leggings because they show off my butt and do their job while doing so. This is tricky territory if, like me, you wear your yoga leggings to yoga and not around; they have to hug you in the right places and they definitely have to be thick enough. I’ve worn super cute leggings to class and felt like death because they’re not stretchy or aren’t breathable and I’ve worn leggings that are too big and gap way too much in the back. The Ultimate Yoga Legging are the perfect fabric; they breathe, they’re stretchy, they don’t lose their fit throughout class as you sweat. For someone who doesn’t spend a lot on their yoga clothes, I’ll definitely be investing in more of these pants. They’re comfy, they’re adorable and they make your butt look good. I hate being in public in my yoga clothes, but when I wear these babies, I don’t mind at all. 111128910 7 5 4 3 26I tried the leggings out and they’re  perfect. Thank you so much to PINK at USC for letting me play around and feel awesome while doing it. Follow them on Instagram and Twitter for giveaways and updates!

Thanks to my twin, Alexandra, for the photos, find her on Instagram for some cool photos. 13

PS guys- yoga isn’t about being perfect, or achieving perfection in a pose. You have your entire life to work on yoga; the asanas, or physical postures, are just one of the eight limbs of yoga. I know that I’m not “perfect” in any of these postures. I think it’s a good reminder to let go of ego when you see a pose you’re not perfect in.

Namaste

Gabriela

HOW TO MAKE A VISION BOARD

I’ve been making vision boards, unintentionally or otherwise, since I was little. I always loved cutting up my magazines and making collages and it wasn’t until I was a little bit older that I understood how important that was. Vision boards are inspiration boards with a twist; they have an intention behind them. Think about it this way, instead of just having things that inspire you on your board, it’s things that you want on your board. Whether it’s a new watch or self love, cut up old magazines, books, newspapers and find things that speak to you. Create a collage of what you want and put it where you’ll see it everyday.

Mine turned out as more of inspiration boards, so I’m going to go add words and possibly some designs in the the white space. I have fashion/career vision boards and a men vision boards; aka dark and well dressed. Vision boards are a great way to see the law of attraction in motion. They help you make what you want into a reality… they also look beautiful.

I’ll have to figure out where to hang them up and post some more photos.

What are you putting on your vision boards?

Namaste,

Gabriela

Bridges

I think one of the things that scares me most is the idea of living a completely and utterly static life. I’ve talked about my relationship with change a lot on here already, and recently my relationship with what could be and what will be has changed even more. My parents will be moving from California back to San Diego around this time next year, and then my sister and I will be graduating.  Moving around a lot growing up was really difficult as it was happening, but 10 years later, I’m so thankful for the experience. I’ve grown to love the new, to love the promise that things will change. Even when things are different and scary, knowing that things will be different tomorrow holds a special kind of comfort.

1 (2)One of my most recent goals is to explore and adventure more. I won’t be in Columbia much longer so I want to see all that I can. I want to go to more cemeteries and old, historic buildings. I want to visit more abandoned places and museum and I want to make every day an adventure. We aren’t promised anything and regret is an enemy I never, ever plan on meeting. I don’t want to live a static life. I want to see all I can see and do all I can do.2 (2)3 (2)4 (2)6 (1)5 (1)Photos by Alexandra Herstik, @alexyael

Namaste,

Gabriela

 

Diary of A Death Queen

I’ve written about what it means for me to be a Death Queen on here quite a bit, but I’ve never really gotten completely in depth with the philosophy behind it. I’m so excited to announce that my piece on what it means to be a Death Queen and how the Death Card inspires me is now up on one of my favorite blogs, The Numinous.

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I open up about how my spiritual style is influenced by the tarot card, about how death is the ultimate transformative energy worker and how my style is influenced by my spirituality. My sister took some amazing photos for this piece, some which didn’t end up on the site. Enjoy!

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What influences your spiritual style?

Namaste,

Gabriela

W I T C H

The archetypal witch conjures up an image of an old crone mixing herbs in a cauldron, most certainly for a spell or ritual. The word “witch” makes us think of an old hag, riding around a chilly October evening on her broom, casting curses at whoever is unlucky enough to be in her way. Witchcraft and witches exist in modern day, but definitely not in the way that most of the populations thinks.  Every energetic worker, occultist, or witch will have a different definition of the word “witch”.  Although some people tie working magick to witchcraft, not all witches work with magick, just like not all magick workers are witches. What does that mean? Not everyone who manipulates energy for a certain outcome is a witch, and not every witch works with energy. The history of witchcraft is long and winding, and cultures ranging from the Celts to the Ancient Mesopotamian’s had their own form of energy work or magick which could be considered Witchcraft. Witchcraft, and the use of healing through herbs and natural remedies, divination, magick and spells can be passed down from generation to generation in a practice called Hereditary Witchcraft. Witchcraft ranges widely from practitioner to practitioner and you don’t have to have a family that practices witchcraft to practice it yourself. Since Witchcraft is a practice and not a religion, you can follow almost any religious path and still be a witch.

Witchcraft can include anything from divination and crystal work to spells and herb and faerie lore and magick. It’s a personal practice, with an underlying idea that you have tools at your disposal to create and see parts of this life that you may have missed without the awareness or consciousness that comes with Witchcraft. It’s kind of difficult to understand in an objective light, so I’ll share a bit about my personal practice.

My practice of Witchcraft involves working with the tarot, faeries, crystals and and energy work. like spells. I work with the moon and I incorporate my yoga practice as a form of energy work as well. I practice magick, although I don’t believe in using that sort of energy to cause any negativity or harm to anyone. A lot of my practice is being positive, being aware of the power of my thoughts and actions and how I impact other people. In my opinion this is the basis of all energy work, how can you expect to manipulate energy if you’re not aware of the power of your own at all? Thoughts and intentions go a long way, after all.

I became involved with Witchcraft when I was 11 or 12. It started with a deck of Faerie oracle cards, called The Faerie’s Oracle, by Brian Froud. This led me to finding the book “A Witches Guide to Faery Folk” which began me on my journey. 8 or 9 years later and my path is still evolving. I saw this bag on Dolls Kill and had to have it. I love to incorporate fashion and spirituality so this was a match made in heaven. I paired it with some drop waist pants, a halter tank with a low back, some black boots and lots of gold details to finish off the outfit.Shirt: Forever 21/ Necklace: Topshop/ Pants: Zara/ Boots: H&M/ Bag: Dolls Kill

For me, witchcraft is a spiritual practice that means being aware of my energy and my place in the world. It means using my intuition and the tools I have to create the life I want to live, in a peaceful and loving way. I don’t condone hurting anyone or attempting to hurt anyone to get a desired outcome and I especially don’t condone any form of magick that hurts more than it helps. More than anything, this is my practice and my story and my own form of witchcraft.

Talk to me about what you think about witchcraft on twitter @gabyherstik.

Namaste,

Gabriela

All photos by Alexandra Herstik. @alexyael on Instagram 

 

Settle and Surrender

Sometimes life weighs heavy on our shoulders, urging us to find a path that may or may not be there. There’s always a tense dance at the time between decisions, forcing us to examine things on both sides that we may not want to. It can be difficult to come to a conclusion you don’t want to accept, to make a decision that shouldn’t be made. The worst decision of all, though, is not making a decision. It’s important to ponder on things, to find value and morality and chose whatever decision is the best in the end, in every sense of the word. Floating in the in between, however, can  be dangerous and energy draining. Once you make a decision, you can deal with it. If you happen to make the “wrong” decision, it’s okay. Take steps to grow and learn from it. Time is not wasted if knowledge is gained in the process. 

Live in your own moment. Breathe. Exist in the universe.

Namaste,

Gabriela

On Letting Go

I always hold on; to memories, to thing and to people especially. What if’s and why not’s consume my mind and leave me clinging to the past, searching for closure I never found. In the present, I distance myself from people who I care about when they get too close, and I constantly compare myself to others, even though I know I don’t know their real story. I’m always working on letting go, finding my own closure and understanding that the universe has perfect timing. There are things that happen that I may not want to accept or understand, but I let go, keep on and most of the time, later on down the road, I understand why things played out the way they did.

Letting go seems easy in theory. It’s such  a good idea to let go of what’s been hurting you, of what isn’t serving you. The thing is that we’re emotional, empathetic creatures. We crave love and affection, and letting go of someone or something that hasn’t been giving that to us or fulfilling us seems like admitting defeat. Letting go isn’t defeat. It doesn’t mean you’re weak or unworthy. Letting go means finding your own closure, giving yourself the freedom to be without worrying of what could be or “should” be.

Today, let go of what it is that’s holding you down, whether it’s someone else or your own thoughts. Your thoughts hold vast and infinite power, so hold what you want in your minds eye and don’t let it go. Let go of what it is that isn’t serving you. Create your own closure with people and situations and things that ended abruptly. As far as people are concerned, I love to write letters and then burn them. Do what you need to find peace in yourself.

Have patience with yourself. Find happiness in your own bones. Take time to tell yourself  “I love you” and know that it takes time to let go.Your process, your story, your journey is completely and utterly your own. Bask in it.

All photos by Alexandra Herstik, find her on twitter HERE and on instagram HERE

What are you working on today?

Namaste,

Gabriela

Floating Effortlessly

The universe works in strange ways most of the time, ebbing and flowing in unfamiliar patterns. One of the many laws of the universe is the “Law of Least Effort”. The Law of Least Effort simply states that the universe is a lot like a giant river. If you try swimming upstream, you may get far, but you’ll get a lot farther if you simply stop resisting and go with the current. The universe follows the path of least resistance every time.

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It’s so simple to want something so badly that you refuse to acknowledge the possibility that you may have to take some other path to get there, if you get there at all. Resisting something is only putting a kink in the hose; it’s making whatever is going to happen more difficult. It’s a lot like liking someone; you want them to call or text you so badly, and they don’t. It’s only as soon as you let go and free up that energetic path, that they call you.

It’s difficult to surrender. It’s so much easier to wish things were different and to cast judgments because the situation, in our eyes, isn’t as it should be. We use all of our energy in resisting the now, and how things are, to the point of being unable to accept the situation for what it is and learn from it. Things, people, situations, aren’t usually bad in themselves, it is more likely than not that our expectation for what should have happened deviates from what is happening, something we tend to dislike. Things will get done much easier if we stop resisting how things are.

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What tools can you use when you’re in a situation where every fiber in your being is telling you to resist?

1. Breathe. Turn inwards and inhale fully and deeply before exhaling and doing the same thing. Taking ten seconds to check in with yourself and see how your own body is doing energetically is an incredibly important, especially in situations where your energetic body is easy to ignore.

2. Relax. Relax any tension you’re carrying in your body. Again, turning inwards and seeing how your feeling at that moment is an incredible tool. It’s difficult to relax in a tense situation, but once you allow yourself that freedom you’ll feel much better. Even taking a few minutes to stretch and breathe in the bathroom when you’re in a high intensity situation can be life saving.

3. Accept. For right now, whatever is happening is happening. If you’re in physical danger or are about to be, you need to take care of yourself first and foremost and get out and get help. If you’re not then most likely you need to just be,  A lot of the time we psych ourselves out with what we think is going to happen, creating tension in the present when there is really none to be found.

4. Let go and surrender. Surround yourself with people and things that make you feel alive and let go of the fact that there are very few things in this life that you can actually control. Stop resisting your situation. Work to be where you want to be but know that right now, in this moment, things are as they should be.

 

All photos by Katrina Kennedy

Indulge in Excess

I’ve never been a less is more kind of person when it comes to love and clothing and life.I wear a lot of lipstick and a lot of black. I wear a lot of jewelry and I wear clothing that tends to be visually overwhelming and not “simple”.  I love with my entire heart, I sing too loudly, I laugh like a mad woman and I dance like no one is watching, even if everyone is.

There are things I don’t indulge in everyday, read fruit tarts and margaritas, but the key to life is realizing that sometimes you should absolutely indulge. Life, besides being beautiful and grand, is also fleeting and we aren’t promised another minute or hour or day. Today I wore bright pink lipstick and talked a lot with one of my best friends and I’ve probably drank an unhealthy amount of coffee as well. The thing is I live life fully; indulging in simple pleasure that, to me, are what constitute deep, meaningful and loving relationships with people and life itself.

I’ve seen this trend of hating everyone and everything, and being proud of it. Adults who have turned their heart to darkness on purpose, with no intention of embracing the notion that it’s better to love and be hurt  then to not love at all. I have a hard time with negativity; there’s no light in embracing somethng that hurts more than it helps, and the mindset of using energy towards something like hate really bothers me.There is more beauty in the moments you spend loving someone else than there is in hating anyone. Life is to short too wear something that doesn’t make you feel beautiful and it’s definitely too short to hate someone else, or to hate yourself for that matter.

Here’s the bottom line. Love as much as you can. Wear what you want; wear what makes you feel like a god/dess .I’ve been wearing a lot of makeup because my job at Zara makes me wear a uniform and guess what?! It makes me feel good. Wear as much makeup as you want because the only opinion that matters is your own. Find the good in people and ADMIRE it. Look to the people who have hurt you for growth and realize that no one is perfect. Let success humble you. let others hurt and anger remind you to keep your heart soft and forgiving. Be empathetic towards those who can’t let go of what has caused them to break.

There is no joy to be found in hatred. Indulge in an excess of love. Love more, love deeply and love fully.

Namaste,

Gabriela

Menswear Monday: Inspired by Sri Ganesha

One of the reasons I’m so drawn to yoga is because of the philosophy, and how rooted yoga is in Hinduism and Hindu mythology. Hinduism is littered with beautiful stories of how the world came to be, of why our spirits are how they are, and stories of the hundreds of gods and goddesses that are in the Hindu pantheon. The two main deities in the Hindu pantheon are Shakti and Shiva; the supreme god and goddess that all the other gods and goddess are representations of. Shakti and Shiva represent the god and goddess in each of us; the feminine and masculine power that is alive and innate in every single one of our souls. One of my favorite gods in the Hindu pantheon is the elephant head god, Ganesh. Ganesh iconography and imagery is everywhere nowadays, and for good reason. Ganesh is the guardian of doorways and the remover of obstacles. He is the god of auspiciousness; he is the promise that yes, things will be okay; he is the promise that one door closing most certainly means another opening.

So why does this god have the head of an elephant? There are many myths surrounding the origin of his elephant head, but perhaps the most popular is the one that follows. In most myths, Ganesh is the son of Pavarti (a form of Shakti) and Shiva. One day, while Pavartia was taking a bath, she asked Ganesh to guard the door. Well, Shiva came home while Ganesh was obeying his mothers orders, but Shiva didn’t recognize Ganesh as his own, so CHOP, he cut off his head. Pavartia was furious, obviously, and made Shiva take the head of the first animal he crossed paths with. Shiva came back with  the head of a strong, powerful, elephant and the image of the classic elephant headed god was born.

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Channel Ganesh and wear something inspired by his home country. Wear bright reds, oranges or yellows (Ganesh is usually depicted in a very colorful manner). Try some red drop waist pants with a soft, loose tee shirt  (10 points to Gryfindor if it has an elephant on it), and slip on some Chelsea boot to finish up the look. Grab a pendant with Ganesh on it to serve as reminder that you can overcome any  obstacle, and slip on a black windbreaker to keep cool and collected while you do so. 5 x 7 Hortence J Pacadorf Elephant von GrandOleBestiary auf Etsyganesh

Drop waist pants, or harem pants, naturally have an Indian vibe to them so style em and rock em as you like. I personally like a drop waist pant with a more fitted, but not “tight”, top. Feeling really inspired by the elephant headed god? Try wearing a tee shirt with him on it. Don’t feel the vibe of harem pants or bright colors? That’s cool too. Perhaps, wear an intention to remember that Ganesh has got your back (or that the universe/ god/ goddess has got your back. We’re all praying to the same god in the end, after all.) Keep in mind that things work out as they should in the long run, and take comfort in knowing that you are a manifestation of the divine.

Namaste,

Gabriela

 

Diaries of A Mad Dancing Woman

Here’s the thing; it’s one thing to say you don’t care what other people think and it’s another thing to actually realize how unimportant other’s opinions are and to let that leak into your day to day life. Let’s face it; we’re trained from a young age to be accepted and liked, and although that’s important, it’s also important to remember that we shouldn’t mold ourselves to fit into anyone else’s idea of who we should be.

So, this is where my story begins. Last Friday I went to the Tabernacle, a venue here in Atlanta, to see one of my current favorite bands, Balance and Composure. They were performing with some hometown heroes, Manchester Orchestra, but I suck and  don’t know any of Manchester’s music, BUT they do put on an amazing show! I was there for Balance, who I’d seen  in October at The Masquerade (another Atlanta venue), right after their new album dropped. I have been listening to them everyday since then.The thing is,  a lot has happened in the months since October, people have come into my life and left it, and I feel like this band has been a constant since that day I saw them. Seeing them again was like closure and new beginnings wrapped into one. I was definitely excited. And, as always, the biggest step in a show is finding what to wear; especially if it’s at the Tabernacle, where you have chairs to sit in. OPTIONS GALORE. I decided upon this ensemble.

I chose a bandeau from Zara in the perfect mint green and paired it with a pair of pants from H&M. These pants are my new favorite; a they have lace paneling on the sides and are sheer and have a pair of hot pants as a slip of sorts. I didn’t really know what to expect as far what other people were wearing so I went full out. I even swapped out my classic, tried and true red lipstick for black.

Selfies were most definitely involved.

Okay so the point of this story? Fast forward to being at the actual venue with my best friend Marissa right before Balance and Composure comes on. I was freaking out. My heart was racing, my hands were clammy, my feet were antsy; I was sitting up in my chair about to have a panic attack, I was so excited and ready to get up and sing and dance.

The lights dim. Balance comes out. I stand up from my chair and run to the little gate at the front of the section of the second level of the venue that we are on. I was at the very front, overlooking those who were standing at the general admission section below, and I let loose.

When I say I let loose I mean, I LET LOOSE. I was dancing my heart out, and if you’ve ever been in the car with me when I play Bohemian Rhapsody, you’ll know what I mean. I was shaking my hips, screaming my lungs out to every word and I had both arms in the air the whole time. The catch? No one else was dancing. At all. Everyone else started dancing when Manchester Orchestra came on, but they weren’t so impressed by Balance and Composure. Everyone below me could look up and see me dancing and everyone behind me was taking photos and snickering and laughing. I didn’t even notice the people below us staring until Marissa pointed it out after I made her come and stand and dance next to me.

But you know what? I had the best time of my life. I LOVE dancing and I can’t imagine standing still through the set of a band who I love so much (and who are so good. Seriously if you’ve never heard Balance and Composure, check them out). It doesn’t matter to me what these random people think about me because I was so present and happy and JOYOUS when I was watching this bands set.

I was dancing with my best friend to a band who had been there longer for me this past year than a lot of other people. I sat down after the last song was finished and unintentionally started crying. It felt like I had just come off a week long juice cleanse and all my emotions were coming up. I felt whole and present and grateful and complete and kinda like I wanted to throw up. But the one thing I didn’t feel at all? Regret. No sort of regret for looking like a loon on loon tablets for dancing so hard, no regret for looking weird because I was having so much fun, no regret for truly, truly, dancing through life. Nothing. Why? Because I had so much fun, seeing some of my favorite songs live and what strangers thought of my experience was, and continues to be, completely irrelevant to the experience itself.

I went to the bathroom after the show and just took it in. Everything. I had even been able to experience the night with my best friend and also one of my closest guy friends, James. Although there weren’t enough seats for us all to sit next to one another, we grabbed James a seat a row and a few seats over from us. James and I both love Balance and after I got back to my phone once their set was finished, I saw a text from him reading “I fucking love you”. That made all the side eyes worth it.

So what’s the morale of the story? Dance. At red lights, at concerts, in your car, at work. Dance through life because we’re not promised another day or another hour; we just have this. And what’s more organic and wonderful then surrendering to a song? Whether it’s one the universe’s hum or one your favorite band singing, it doesn’t matter. Dance through life literally and metaphorically and never, EVER, be deterred from your dance because others don’t have your rythm.

Namasate,

Gabriela

Menswear Monday: Mani and the Moon

Monday’s are the best; a new start to a new week that’s chock full of endless possibility. Monday’s are also ruled by the moon; a powerhouse vessel of intuition, dreams, higher powers, that’s honored and represented by a long list of deities.

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For today’s menswear post, I’m taking inspiration from Mani, a Norse god of the moon, and the brother of the god of the sun, Sol. Mani is said to ride across the sky in a horse drawn chariot, followed through his trek by a wolf; when the wolf approaches too closely, a lunar eclipse takes place. He is nephew of the night, and is said to travel around with two children, a boy and a girl named Hjuki and Bil. The children were sent to the moon as punishment after Mani caught them messing with his reflection in a well. Hjuki and Bill  play around on the moon and form the spots and craters we see. Mani is said to protect those who are dealing with emotional pain, he is even said to be a patron to neglected children since some stories claim Hjuki and Bill were neglected.

There is not much information about Mani, and I hadn’t heard of,him prior to this post. I’m all for horses, wolves and I love the Norse pantheon (not to mention the moon), so I’m excited to learn more and work with this deity. For now, take inspiration from him. Think of how important the moon is in a universal sense and to the fact that it controls our tides and crops. Think of what the moon represents; duality, a light in the darkness, connection to dreams, nightmares, and one’s own power and intuition.

Now think about how you can incorporate this into your wardrobe. The metal that corresponds to the moon is silver; dress in black, whites and blues and wear silver to help align you to the the energies that are present. Wear pieces that fuel your passion for mystery, whether that’s a leather jacket, a nice watch or a monocle.

Inspired by Mani

On this Monday, find your own sense of Mani by wearing patterns that mirror the moon’s rough surface. Dress in all black; the color of power and the night. Wear a watch that has a face like the moon, and take note of any little sparks of inspiration or  any moments of intuitive clarity in a notebook just for you.

 

What inspires you when the moon is full?

Happy Monday,

Gabriela

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